Personality Test

The mighty unicorn deigned to try out a test

Ta-dah, your personality type is ENTP!

Extraverted (E) 71%	Introverted (I) 29%
Intuitive (N) 68%	Sensing (S) 32%
Thinking (T) 70%	Feeling (F) 30%
Perceiving (P) 64%	Judging (J) 36%

http://kisa.ca/personality/results.php

Werp. Apparently I'm the kind of person who lollygags at making decisions .__.

Really, I can use this reasoning to justify why I've been declining job offers. Or why I've been feeling so low for lack of teasing loving ministrations towards Farah. 

Loving ministrations > homosexuality nuance. She'd flipped if she reads this XD

Can't wait to see my porn books graphic novels arrive~

New Banner \o/

Finally worked up myself to make a new banner~  F*cking misjudged the width. Whatever. Am too lazy to re-do it >_>

Jormungand sigs~ Awesome series. I just have to make sigs of Koko and Jonah <3

Whipped up this batch like a boss. Took me less than 20 minutes to finish one. Seems like graphics funk is fading away. Yay!

Jonah <3 This one's fairly easy to work with. Cropped the pic, slap texture and do some photo manipulations. Lazy sig turned out great XD Kinda regret giving this away ;__;

Koko <3 <3 The original version was in blue. Slapped bubble texture and changed the hue. Feels like there's something missing here but dunno what. 

Hell, am obsessed with rounded border...

I do not claim rights for the original arts but the sigs are my PS-raping works. DO NOT RIP. 

Poem by Fiona Apple

A favourite poem of mine.

When the pawn hits the conflicts he thinks like a king
What he knows throws the blows when he goes to the fight
And he'll win the whole thing 'fore he enters the ring
There's no body to batter when your mind is your might
So when you go solo you hold your own hand
And remember that depth is the greatest of heights
And if you know where you stand then you know where to land
And if you fall it won't matter 'cuz you know that you're right

Angst

The first impression when I got to the school: Aww... shucks, the lads and lasses have good manners.

IT'S A LIE! 

Initial reaction when the beasts were flaunting their identity are Moroners.

But I tried to persevere... Unfortunately, I lost my cool.

After a few bouts of anger, I felt ashamed and desperate enough to be nice to everyone, because I felt like I was being barbaric.

These days, I don't give a fck about niceties anymore. Dealing with aptly inane teachers, as well idiotic beasts just opens up my inner volcano. The lava keeps spewing; the flow's not going to stop until I'm done there or pops an artery and die with copious amount of spilling from all visible orifices.

On the good side, the food's cheap and delicious. That's the only thing I look forward every day I go to school. The sad. Whiny, bitchy much post. I know. BUT, at the moment I feel like I'm gonna be trapped forever in this whirlpool of angst and self-pity.

/am gonna regret posting this on not so distant but not too near in the future -_-

Blockbusters

During Ramadhan....

Bila rasa lapar, makanan tak sampai-sampai....

And when we talk about necessary prostitution....

XDDD

Dah Tua Tapi Tak Sedar Diri

Ish, ish, ish.... *shakes head* Know what a lame person does? Dance to K-pop music like a cat pulled its muscles and at the same time, sing along the song while sounding like a strangled chicken.

Who? Who is that LAME ASS?

ME. YES, ME.

////rantrantrant--- Ye shall not steal this line or ye may face the wrath of Saki the Raging Old WhipperShnapper. Fear my candycane!!! *kungfu pose*

If You're Angry...

..and you know it slap your slippers really hard. I'm enraged because pfft... the government suddenly wanted to ban file sharing websites like megaupload and hotfiles. What, isn't it enough with lame censorship and not knowing WHAT TO LABEL? Naruto is PG13 BUT stupidly enough it's not delivered with the label.
"Hai adik-adik. Tonton lah Naruto setiap *****"
Jadi label U pulak kan?



Thank God (and the creator of that program) for the existence of torrent.

After this, government, why don't you ban reality TV shows. That'll give more space for BETTER TV shows.
Tau lah nak dekat General Election tapi perlu ke buat benda dengan extreme?

Undiluted anger causes me to slap the pan on the stove. It was a damn good pan too.

Luckily there is A WAY to bypass stupid restriction.

Rantrantrant\\\\

Gateway of Information

I get all the shizzles from the members of the forum I'm frequenting and the mass of information makes my head explode. Like this:
I was talking about Vampire: The Masquerade series (read up till vol 5 waay back in primary school)

[02:25] <Rufus_T_Firefly> Zaphasutra, the Ravnos antediluvian

[02:26] <Rufus_T_Firefly> I may be spelling it wrong, the point really was: do you know the V:TM backstory, 'cause if you don't the clan novel's whole overreaching plot might get pretty weird as you read them

[02:27] <Rufus_T_Firefly> like if you haven't read the role playing game stuff, then you will never know who actually caused all the things that happen in the 13 novels

[02:29] <paplou> T_T I'm lost

Or this when they talk about programming and webdev:

[04:06] <Rufus_T_Firefly> and while I don't do none these days, I can honestly say i've programmed on C=64, the official computer of the Republic :)

[04:06] <malaka> cool;) me too

[04:06] <malaka> c64, amiga500, 1200, and pc

[04:06] <Rufus_T_Firefly> and C128! :D

[04:07] <Rufus_T_Firefly> everyone forgets the C128

[04:07] <malaka> never had a 128

[04:07] <Rufus_T_Firefly> me neither, but a neighbour did

[04:07] <Rufus_T_Firefly> also, C=64 and C=128, please ;)

[04:08] <malaka> hahahz

[04:08] <Rufus_T_Firefly> I also owned a pc made by hyundai corporation, dang

[04:08] <Anarchywolf46> Old folks.

[04:08] <malaka> was is good?

And they even make their own music and remix and draw doujinshi!

I feel inept at my super lame ability: studying -_-

I haven't seen the world's horizon yet.

Things That would ensure World Peace... among others

I've been plagued by this idea. What would it take to make the world a peaceful place? (Note that I am NOT talking about how to make this world BETTER. That would make the world near to perfect to live. Meh like a bit of chaos and disorder. Gives me a reason to bitch about life).

10 things that according to Saki (2011), would ensure that the world is in peace are:

1. No plastic bags - we use way TOO MUCH PLASTIC that are non-biodegradable it's literally killing the earth. Why can't we just carry a recyclable bag or even better, collapsible carrier. Then people won't have to bicker about saiz plastik masa membeli-belah dekat shopping complex/pasar.
2. No littering - some people are practically retarded that they have to litter even though the bin is NEXT to them. Nak jalan 30cm pergi buang sampah pon malas. Macam tak belajar. Meh sini aku ajar step by step cara2 nak buang sampah dengan betul.
3. More tolerance towards diversity - accept people for what they are BUT at the same time, holding to your own principle and respect the society and the law. I do have particular dislike towards certain group of people but that doesn't mean I would harass them in any forms nor do I persuade people to hold the same belief. And I do believe that the fault of one (or a few people) cannot be used as basis of hatred for any particular group of races/ethnics.
4. Patience - it's the root of tolerance, understanding and forgiveness. 
5. More bishies (beautiful man)! - pleasant to the eyes. The more pleased I am we are, the less bickering we will do.
6. Less talks by the politicians, more actions taken - small issues could be solved before they escalate to serious problems to the people. That would save a lot of cost to fix things up and avoid potential harm/danger. 
7. No cellulite and flabbiness - this is the main culprit that drives women (and men) to harm themselves by means of rigorous exercise, absurd diet and useless weight loss pills/products. These people become rabid when they're starved: a serious issue to internal affair.     
8. No cockroach - seriously, nobody has ever guessed the point of this bug's existence. It exists only to create chaos and food poisoning (add extreme heart palpitation and extreme twitchiness to the crime list of cockroaches). A threat to sanity and health.
9. More humour - means more laughter and smile. People all over the universe need more laughters and smiles than they need weapons or money. Seriously speaking, why can't those warring countries fight with humour rather than with weapons?
10. Less stupidity - it's okay to be stupid moderately once in a while. It's NOT okay to be stupid most of the time. Whatever happens to the development of people's grey matters these days (especially the younger generation)? If you messed up, then cover it up. No need to publicize it as if the world must know, you idiot. Your stupidity never cease to create problems to other people.

Don't agree with my list of things that guarantee world peace? Then make one yourself.

Say 'NO' to being disillusioned in life

Things get tough and life seems unbearable as time goes on. We live by honouring the code of the society and try as much as we can to avoid discomfort. Like working a 9 to 5 job, sitting at the desk all day long and getting dissed by the boss and slaved away to build that dream house with a nice car one always want. It's not wrong to want to live comfortably. It's not wrong to want to have a lot of money. But is it worth it if it means being dissatisfied with your life forever and ever (well, at least until you retired)?

I am the typical-minded person who wants all the comforts that a good job may offer: a big house, an imported car and money to shop all I want. However, that doesn't mean that I am willing to sacrifice what I want to do.

Mom wants me to hold a position in the government service. She said you'll be comfortable set for life. House loan with low interest rate, less time of work hour (and tasks) plus, medical benefit. Yeah, mom. Those are all good. You don't get them if you work with private sector and you have to perform to your utmost limit. But being a government officer doesn't mean that I'll be happy even though I earn the dough.

I've always wanted to do something that will require my life and soul, and it'll be done willingly. The path might be rough, and I'd stumble but I'll still follow through because at the end of the day, I want to be proud of what I did. After all, I don't want to be an adult who at the end of the day regrets that she didn't do what she wants. It'll be difficult and I may give up hope at some point, but that is another chapter in my journey that needs to be tackled. So, why bother to overthink stuff. If I think how much this won't work I'll end up chickening out of my dream. So, I'll just take one step ahead and do it.

I Am Pregnant...with Ideas

A few hours after the last paper, my brain cells were revitalized and ideas surged over my puny cranium it was overwhelming.

A little bit of information provokes my imagination to leap over the boundaries.

Like when I was told about the goings of fire drill practice at the kindergarten.

The children are literally little humpbacked camels with high capacity water storage in their bladders that they need to go potty every minute ticking. That annoys the caretakers.

If it is up to me, I'd make it mandatory for the little beasts-the children to saddle their own portable potty? That'll teach them to take pee break seriously. Do once properly and try not to repeat.


Oh, and I've been wondering if Captain Hook has ever been into butchery business. His hook looks prime for dangling fresh butch.


Ever wonder why most women abhor one night stand? That's because they can't reuse the stick.

Booger is God's creation to adorn the caverns that are our nostrils.

If I'm married to a king, I won't call my husband "His Majesty". It'd be "MY Majesty." That'd make ME the supreme ruler of the kingdom.

Rabbits have twitchy, long ears which forever flap because they live in dugout. They don't have fans much less air conditioners to cool the room.

Oh, don't forget the worm question. How do worm tunnels the earth? Well, worms are very advanced in machinery that they managed to attached themselves to silent, motorized drillers. That's why they dig really fast.

Near Death Experience Is Zen

The last time I was on the verge of death was when I tried to forgo eating for 5 days. Though that wasn't the worst near-death experience I've ever had. I think the worst one was when I was in Form 5 when my mom went for a woman's seminar. I was engrossed in reading, by the time my mom came home my soul was practically half out of my body.

Oh, the days I see stars when I forgo eating. But that only follows after feeling extremely irritated by the smallest thing I see, the urge to kick and pummel anything nearby. Oh, not forgetting the dizziness and uncontrollable shaking. These are initial stages before I succumb to the feeling of euphoria and my soul goes out of my body (I'd like to think that my soul REALLY flies out).

Back then I can go on just by drinking water for 3-5 days.
(Sigh). Now, I can only go on without food for about two days. I feel old.

It was enlightening: when you're dying (or feel like it). I feel like "There are more than shit in life" after being revived. I feel more serene about going through my mundane life after being revived (or more likely resurrected?!).

Near death experience is very Zen. I'd recommend others to experience near-death moment through starvation. It makes one appreciate life (and food) more.

Brain Drain

As much as I want to write something colourful like Samito's post, I can't. Couldn't. (I envy people with social life 'coz much of what I do is do assignment, sleep, eat, read and the cycle goes on and on and on). Blahblahblah.

I think I'm going down with depression because lately I've been staring up at the ceiling while lying down on the bed, unable to form a coherent thought. Blank. Reminds me of Hemingway's "nada y pues nada" in one his stories.

Combined with the anxiety of career life. My toilet/shower/bathroom time is preoccupied with "what profession am I going to land in?", "How much am going to earn?" and "Oh I wish my family's filthy rich so I don't have to worry about working and moolah."

The problem is: I overthink things.
Solution: Worry about future later. Now worry about assignments and final examination.

Conclusion: I'm a worrywart therefore, I am unable to produce any humorous nor enlightening piece of writing. That's why I've been submitting crappy written assignments. Thank God I am not suicidal.
God: You're a chicken shit. There's no way you're gonna kill yourself, silly.
Me : Um, yeah. Thank you for telling me the obvious thing.

~Fin~

Ode to Indolence and Slothiness (and Lack of Wit)

I am extremely lazy to the point that I nearly died out of dehydration today because I am stupid enough to remember that I need to drink at least 2 litres of water everyday. Last week was a horror because hahaha... I shed skin: literally shedding skin like a molting snake.

I.Can.See.Skin.Everywhere.In.My.Room

My room is looking like dumpster because I am too lazy to clean it up.
Must clan everything before midterm break.

Oh, and I was extremely foggy during my Introduction to Moral Philosophy class. The lecturer suddenly popped out of nowhere and sat in front of me and started to ask questions but I was like "...." It went for sometime until I could comprehend that he was asking my friends and I about something.
"Oh, he was asking about asal mana?"
(I mentally scratch my head and pondered, "Er, aku asal mana yeh?")

After a few (long)seconds of thinking I replied something like "lahir KL, tinggal dekat Putrajaya"

Lately, cognitive ability has degenerated into that of a chimp's.

I can see how incoherent this post is. Must charge my brain. Will try to write more during break.

Plague at Home

Being at home is supposed to make one feels better.

...but I am not feeling one iota of contentment.

First, I have had to wake up early in the morning and send my gran to the clinic everyday. No, I don't hate her. I just hate waking up before 10 o'clock. I get headache and I become extremely clumsy in the morning. My mom said to my brother, "Your sister has the ability to destroy the universe in her sleepy state." It's pretty self-explanatory how destructive I am when I lumber off in sleepiness, bound to break and crash and inflict pain to all around me.

To make things worst, I am losing weight rapidly. Gila betul. Ye lah aku tau aku cakap nak turunkan berat badan tapi bukanlah 1 kilo dalam masa 3-5 hari. Nak kurangkan 3 kilo je tapi ni dah lebih. Moreover, I lose weight while pigging out on everything that is reachable. This is absurd. My body has defied the law of nature. I am ecstatic unhappy with my inhumane body.

(mumbles) Maybe I'm evolving into some sort of fat-sucking creature!? Yeah, yeah. If I can use this ability in an active way, I might be able to cure obesity and thus, achieve world peace. (snort) Ye lah tu.


I also have sore throat. It hurts. I can't speak a lot. It's painful not to be able to listen to my own voice.

Of Time and Space

Watching Ben 10: Alien Force today makes me feel nostalgic. Ah, the concepts of black hole and time warp are just the cure that I need whenever I reminisce about growing up. There are things that I want to change if I can go back to the past. Like, stopping myself from chewing my nails (I get to have horribly deformed nails because of this nasty habit of mine). Oh, and then there was the time when I changed my mind about pursuing art when I was in primary school. I wished I didn't stop going to classes back then. There is another thing. I wish I have rejected the offer for Bachelor of Education in IIUM. It's a burden to my mental health. I've become extremely narcissistic and neurotic to the point that I am blunt in voicing my opinion. Too blunt, I'd say, that my words can cause serious concussion to other people's self-esteem. I also refuse to believe that there is always a degree of goodness in every single being. I used to believe in second chances. Now, I reject everything that can be called ' giving another chance after making mistake'.

How I wish to be naive again so that my eyes can see things without being pejorative in every single aspect that I can find in human beings. I've become so obsessed with getting answers, I refuse to anything other options than black and white: no excuse can soothe my anger if someone else messes up my pace. My current mental image: annihilator. I get rid of those who obstruct my path, regardless of our relationship's status.

It's kind of terrible to grow up. You either become self-centred or pushover. I'm the later type. I don't care how much harm I cause others as long as I'm safe and secured: I love myself first, second and third. I do fulfil expectations put on me, whenever I feel like putting any efforts to please people. However, I don't do things that do not benefit me: there is always incentive behind everything I do. Kind of a horrible revelation when I reflect about my own personality.

That's why I wish I can turn back the time and somehow fix my bad traits. Which is impossible (going back to the past that is). The only thing that I can do now is acquire positive habits to balance out my negative personality. It's tough, though. Being nice is one thing that requires the most effort for me (laugh).

Making Fast money a.k.a Ponzi Scheme

It's bad enough that people start to fall into those "make-money-fast" scheme. It's worse when someone starts to insists doing MLM will make you rich that you can buy a Porsche in 6 months. What a scam. How can they not realize that they get less than what they invest (it's worst when they don't get anything at all).

To me, get-rich-fast investments like Swissfund and MLM are Ponzi schemes. Both are fallible: they're destined to collapse either by legal authority or the so called "top leaders" in charge vanish into thin air as soon as they get rich.

I'm amazed there are still people out there who haven't learned their lesson even though they've been duped by these Ponzi schemes. Don't they know the idiom, "Twice bitten, once shy"?


...I think it's one of the reason why Darwin believes human evolves from ape: they just don't get it (about being scammed).

The most annoying part is when those stupid people try to drag you along to the bottom of hell's pit fire. I'm no pushover. My sanity and my reasoning are intact and thank God I'm neurotic. Thanks for the offer but I'm no fool and I loath to part with my money. You can try to convince me to join your stupid business until your mouth froth with blood, but I will still decline your offer to make me crawl on the ground with you.

Ramblings after Exam

Yeah! Semantics the only paper left. (do frog dance)

oh ah eh!
Personally speaking, when I ranted on my blog about being clueless on many things, there are several terms that I found amusing and baffling.

1) MOFO - don't even know what it stand for but judging by how it's used in context, it refers to shitty people. (googles it) oh, la! it means motherfucker!
2)dipshit - everyone knows it's a curse word but how is it used specifically? (in context, it's used to refer to people with annoying, sassy attitude!?). Hmm, will find out later. (googles it)Means: a moron, a despised person, an ignorant asshole.

3)Why is it that "I wanna eat you" pops up instead of "I want to have sex with you" in stories? I don't dig. (google please!)...it has to do with fellatio. Gross!


...I don't know why but I I always vent out my frustration by being vulgar (and reading perverted stuff).

Alter ego: You're seriously fucked up.hehe...thanks to moi, your inner demon.
Me : ...someone, get me to a shrink. No, scrap that. Get me an exorcist.
Alter ego: You can try but you can't resist me, baby.

...This is the effect of studying too much moral subjects. Beware of moral education. It can get you severely deranged.

Speaking about life quote, Edward (FMA: Brotherhood) puts life's struggle in a nice quote:

A lesson without pain is meaningless. That's because no one can gain without sacrificing something. But by enduring that pain and overcoming it he shall obtain a powerful, unmatched heart. A fullmetal hear.

(Yay to me! I finally managed to watch all 64 episodes of FMA:B)


Recipe yum,yum,yum: How to make Miso Soup.


Serves 4

1/2 a packet of silken bean curd (tofu)
1 litre of dashi
10g wakame seaweed
60ml miso paste
2 spring onions, shredded, to garnish

1. Cut the bean curd into 1cm cubes. Bring dashi to the boil, lower the heat and add wakame seaweed (if not, use nori). Simmer for 1-2 minutes.
2. Pour a little of the soup into a bowl and add the miso paste, stir until it dissolves. Pour the mixture back into the pan.
3. Add the bean curd and heat through for 1 minute. Serve immediately and garnish with the spring onion.

Tip: Reduce heat when the stock boils to avoid loss of flavour.


Where oh where can I get instant dashi~~
Wakame, oh wakame, lalala~
Dashi, dashi, dashi equals to miso soup,
Yummy!


Reading of the week:

1) Cha! Chu! Cho! : a story about a cat's digestive problem. It's umm... very illuminating!?

2)Philosophy in the Classroom by Matthew Lipman, Ann Margaret Sharp & Frederick Oscanyan: philosophy in teaching children and guiding philosophy discussion in classroom. For my Method in Teaching Moral Education.

NEXT: Semantics. Need to cover on synonymy, antonymy and deixis

BOOKS: The Ultimate Retreat from Painful, Agonizing Reality

I might be the last person who picked up Greyson Chance. Not only him. I might be the only person who doesn't know what happens in this world for the past, I don't know, maybe 1 month? I'm so ignorant -_-

The only thing that I have been doing lately is read books, study for final, read academic stuff, sleep and read manga.

Reading is my retreat from unpleasant aspects of life.

I read because I find adventures, peace and solitude, as well as enlightenment in the stories penned by unknown people who impart their wisdom (or inane ideas) in the plots that they have made.

Talking about retreat-to-the-corner-of-the-world time, there are some books that I would really like to recommend to Syahmi (I know you don't really read thick books so I've mixed some choices here. Do read them when you have time).




A food guide by Consumers Association of Penang. It is an eye-opener to all human beings who eat (every single homo sapien on this planet should read it!). You don't know what kind of poisons you ingest everyday. Scary wooh. I could never have imagined some of the common food that we eat everyday may have small doses of harmful substances in them.


This is a must read for LoTR fans



Taken from Wikipedia:

The Silmarillion comprises five parts. The first part, Ainulindalë, tells of the creation of Eä, the "world that is". Valaquenta, the second part, gives a description of the Valar and Maiar, the supernatural powers in Eä. The next section, Quenta Silmarillion, which forms the bulk of the collection, chronicles the history of the events before and during the First Age, including the wars over the Silmarils which gave the book its title. The fourth part, Akallabêth, relates the history of the Downfall of Númenor and its people, which takes place in the Second Age. The final part, Of the Rings of Power and the Third Age, is a brief account of the circumstances which led to and were presented in The Lord of the Rings.

The five parts were initially separate works, but it was the elder Tolkien's express wish that they be published together. Because J. R. R. Tolkien died before he finished revising the various legends, Christopher gathered material from his father's older writings to fill out the book. In a few cases, this meant that he had to devise completely new material in order to resolve gaps and inconsistencies in the narrative.

Tales of each Age (of the Middle Earth world) are told in this book. There are five parts that tell tales of each Age.

The first tale is a profound story (for me). It's sort of a prelude to how the world of was created and how one of the Illuvatar's children, Melkor, deviated from the creator's wish. The depiction of his character sort of wowed me: charismatic and all powerfull but yet has insatiable desire for the world itself. His character truly overshadows Sauron. Meh. Me like Melkor.

And then there is the part where Beren, a man and Luthien, the first generation of elf fall in love with each other. This is the part where two generations of elf have made a choice for mortality: both Luthien (the first generation) and Elros, the descendant of Beren and Luthien chose to live with mortal life-span.

The book is an awesome prelude to LoTR, I tell you (you have to read it, Syahmi).


The third book of the day is, ta-da!: Through the Looking Glass by Lewis Caroll.



It's the sequel to Alice in Wonderland. This the part where she gets engaged in the battle of the Queens, chess-style: remember the White Queen and the Red Queen? Coming along, Alice meets Humpty Dumpty, Tweedledum and Tweedledee, and the illustrious Jabberwocky (me like the poem, even though it sounds nonsensical).

....................................

Now, I need to make time to watch all those dramas and movies I've collected (in my laptop). Must open my eyes. Don't...sleep..must watch..zzZZZ