Selamat Hari Raya. kalau ada salah silap, mintak maaf la ye.
am too lazy to celebrate raya this year, don't have any energy left. UIA sucked everything away. I hate that place (throwing mental bombs at that ***)
btw, my hol sucks.
Fatin said I will gradually embrace the place. Sorry dahling, my hatred towards that place grows ever strong.
Syahmi, I'm glad you are thriving happily in USM.
Aimi, even though she always complain about being run ragged by the activities in UPM, she sounds like she's having a blast studying there.
Boy, am I glad you guys are doing fine surviving in uni!
I know complain too much (I complained about going to UiTM before but in the end I was ok with that place) but I can't help it. My life really sucks. I'm stuck with bloodsuckers who did nothing and yet still get better CGPA which makes me angry I f****** don't understand how it becomes like that. I can't really comprehend my syllabuses, I'm taking way too little of TESL-based subjects. Why the hell do I need to learn moral and bloody social works, fu*ktard things which I can barely understand I feel like being dunk underwater while learning how to spell MONKEY which is really frustrating I HATE those classes. I can't really talk with people around me other than ian and fafa but it's still limited because I don't feel like I can confide a lot of stuff to them and farah has limited capacity of understanding anything complex and dina, bleh!, Akmal sucks macam biskut and most of the people there are too busy or not very understanding I'm scared i'd be condemned if i voice out what's on my mind, or they're just too pious it's suffocating to be there. WHY?WHY?WHY CANT'T I JUST ADAPT LIKE YOU GUYS?
I never cried about lame stuff like this before; I feel like I'm going to fail in everything for eternity because I can't even be comfortable and do things my way and I feel like such an invalid because I'm not good in being nice and friendly and all, I feel like fake doing things in UIA's way. I want to channge badly but my mom said she can't afford to pay more to send me somewhere else. She just doesn't want me to quit UIA because she bloody loves it. I hate everything around me, my face hurts like hell because I can't smile and I frowned way too much and even though I try smiling, most of the time, they are fake it's tiring.
I just can't call anyone and talk to any friends anymore because I would cry buckets and I don't want to look pathetic.
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im thriving here u say? i think my life here is being repressed all the time, socially and academically. some people are very good to me, but more are acting like bullshits to me. well we basically are in the same boat! let us cry together! haha :')
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