Of drabbles..

Blockbusters

2011-08-11T20:35:00.000+08:00

During Ramadhan....

2011-08-11T19:00:00.000+08:00

Bila rasa lapar, makanan tak sampai-sampai....

And when we talk about necessary prostitution....

XDDD

Dah Tua Tapi Tak Sedar Diri

2011-07-07T08:58:00.000+08:00

Ish, ish, ish.... *shakes head* Know what a lame person does? Dance to K-pop music like a cat pulled its muscles and at the same time, sing along the song while sounding like a strangled chicken.

Who? Who is that LAME ASS?

ME. YES, ME.

////rantrantrant--- Ye shall not steal this line or ye may face the wrath of Saki the Raging Old WhipperShnapper. Fear my candycane!!! *kungfu pose*

If You're Angry...

2011-06-16T04:17:00.000+08:00

..and you know it slap your slippers really hard. I'm enraged because pfft... the government suddenly wanted to ban file sharing websites like megaupload and hotfiles. What, isn't it enough with lame censorship and not knowing WHAT TO LABEL? Naruto is PG13 BUT stupidly enough it's not delivered with the label.
"Hai adik-adik. Tonton lah Naruto setiap *****"
Jadi label U pulak kan?

Thank God (and the creator of that program) for the existence of torrent.

After this, government, why don't you ban reality TV shows. That'll give more space for BETTER TV shows.
Tau lah nak dekat General Election tapi perlu ke buat benda dengan extreme?

Undiluted anger causes me to slap the pan on the stove. It was a damn good pan too.

Luckily there is A WAY to bypass stupid restriction.

Rantrantrant\\\\

Gateway of Information

2011-06-03T04:29:00.000+08:00

I get all the shizzles from the members of the forum I'm frequenting and the mass of information makes my head explode. Like this:
I was talking about Vampire: The Masquerade series (read up till vol 5 waay back in primary school)

[02:25] <Rufus_T_Firefly> Zaphasutra, the Ravnos antediluvian

[02:26] <Rufus_T_Firefly> I may be spelling it wrong, the point really was: do you know the V:TM backstory, 'cause if you don't the clan novel's whole overreaching plot might get pretty weird as you read them

[02:27] <Rufus_T_Firefly> like if you haven't read the role playing game stuff, then you will never know who actually caused all the things that happen in the 13 novels

[02:29] <paplou> T_T I'm lost

Or this when they talk about programming and webdev:

[04:06] <Rufus_T_Firefly> and while I don't do none these days, I can honestly say i've programmed on C=64, the official computer of the Republic :)

[04:06] <malaka> cool;) me too

[04:06] <malaka> c64, amiga500, 1200, and pc

[04:06] <Rufus_T_Firefly> and C128! :D

[04:07] <Rufus_T_Firefly> everyone forgets the C128

[04:07] <malaka> never had a 128

[04:07] <Rufus_T_Firefly> me neither, but a neighbour did

[04:07] <Rufus_T_Firefly> also, C=64 and C=128, please ;)

[04:08] <malaka> hahahz

[04:08] <Rufus_T_Firefly> I also owned a pc made by hyundai corporation, dang

[04:08] <Anarchywolf46> Old folks.

[04:08] <malaka> was is good?

And they even make their own music and remix and draw doujinshi!

I feel inept at my super lame ability: studying -_-

I haven't seen the world's horizon yet.

Things That would ensure World Peace... among others

2011-04-27T21:48:00.000+08:00

I've been plagued by this idea. What would it take to make the world a peaceful place? (Note that I am NOT talking about how to make this world BETTER. That would make the world near to perfect to live. Meh like a bit of chaos and disorder. Gives me a reason to bitch about life).

10 things that according to Saki (2011), would ensure that the world is in peace are:

No plastic bags - we use way TOO MUCH PLASTIC that are non-biodegradable it's literally killing the earth. Why can't we just carry a recyclable bag or even better, collapsible carrier. Then people won't have to bicker about saiz plastik masa membeli-belah dekat shopping complex/pasar.
No littering - some people are practically retarded that they have to litter even though the bin is NEXT to them. Nak jalan 30cm pergi buang sampah pon malas. Macam tak belajar. Meh sini aku ajar step by step cara2 nak buang sampah dengan betul.
More tolerance towards diversity - accept people for what they are BUT at the same time, holding to your own principle and respect the society and the law. I do have particular dislike towards certain group of people but that doesn't mean I would harass them in any forms nor do I persuade people to hold the same belief. And I do believe that the fault of one (or a few people) cannot be used as basis of hatred for any particular group of races/ethnics.
Patience - it's the root of tolerance, understanding and forgiveness.
More bishies (beautiful man)! - pleasant to the eyes. The more pleased ~~I am~~ we are, the less bickering we will do.
Less talks by the politicians, more actions taken - small issues could be solved before they escalate to serious problems to the people. That would save a lot of cost to fix things up and avoid potential harm/danger.
No cellulite and flabbiness - this is the main culprit that drives women (and men) to harm themselves by means of rigorous exercise, absurd diet and useless weight loss pills/products. These people become rabid when they're starved: a serious issue to internal affair.
No cockroach - seriously, nobody has ever guessed the point of this bug's existence. It exists only to create chaos and food poisoning (add extreme heart palpitation and extreme twitchiness to the crime list of cockroaches). A threat to sanity and health.
More humour - means more laughter and smile. People all over the universe need more laughters and smiles than they need weapons or money. Seriously speaking, why can't those warring countries fight with humour rather than with weapons?
Less stupidity - it's okay to be stupid moderately once in a while. It's NOT okay to be stupid most of the time. Whatever happens to the development of people's grey matters these days (especially the younger generation)? If you messed up, then cover it up. No need to publicize it as if the world must know, you idiot. Your stupidity never cease to create problems to other people.

Don't agree with my list of things that guarantee world peace? Then make one yourself.

Say 'NO' to being disillusioned in life

2011-04-21T02:30:00.000+08:00

Things get tough and life seems unbearable as time goes on. We live by honouring the code of the society and try as much as we can to avoid discomfort. Like working a 9 to 5 job, sitting at the desk all day long and getting dissed by the boss and slaved away to build that dream house with a nice car one always want. It's not wrong to want to live comfortably. It's not wrong to want to have a lot of money. But is it worth it if it means being dissatisfied with your life forever and ever (well, at least until you retired)?

I am the typical-minded person who wants all the comforts that a good job may offer: a big house, an imported car and money to shop all I want. However, that doesn't mean that I am willing to sacrifice what I want to do.

Mom wants me to hold a position in the government service. She said you'll be comfortable set for life. House loan with low interest rate, less time of work hour (and tasks) plus, medical benefit. Yeah, mom. Those are all good. You don't get them if you work with private sector and you have to perform to your utmost limit. But being a government officer doesn't mean that I'll be happy even though I earn the dough.

I've always wanted to do something that will require my life and soul, and it'll be done willingly. The path might be rough, and I'd stumble but I'll still follow through because at the end of the day, I want to be proud of what I did. After all, I don't want to be an adult who at the end of the day regrets that she didn't do what she wants. It'll be difficult and I may give up hope at some point, but that is another chapter in my journey that needs to be tackled. So, why bother to overthink stuff. If I think how much this won't work I'll end up chickening out of my dream. So, I'll just take one step ahead and do it.

I Am Pregnant...with Ideas

2011-04-16T02:54:00.000+08:00

A few hours after the last paper, my brain cells were revitalized and ideas surged over my puny cranium it was overwhelming.

A little bit of information provokes my imagination to leap over the boundaries.

Like when I was told about the goings of fire drill practice at the kindergarten.

The children are literally little humpbacked camels with high capacity water storage in their bladders that they need to go potty every minute ticking. That annoys the caretakers.

If it is up to me, I'd make it mandatory for the ~~little beasts~~-the children to saddle their own portable potty? That'll teach them to take pee break seriously. Do once properly and try not to repeat.

Oh, and I've been wondering if Captain Hook has ever been into butchery business. His hook looks prime for dangling fresh butch.

Ever wonder why most women abhor one night stand? That's because they can't reuse the stick.

Booger is God's creation to adorn the caverns that are our nostrils.

If I'm married to a king, I won't call my husband "His Majesty". It'd be "MY Majesty." That'd make ME the supreme ruler of the kingdom.

Rabbits have twitchy, long ears which forever flap because they live in dugout. They don't have fans much less air conditioners to cool the room.

Oh, don't forget the worm question. How do worm tunnels the earth? Well, worms are very advanced in machinery that they managed to attached themselves to silent, motorized drillers. That's why they dig really fast.

Near Death Experience Is Zen

2011-02-20T15:11:00.000+08:00

The last time I was on the verge of death was when I tried to forgo eating for 5 days. Though that wasn't the worst near-death experience I've ever had. I think the worst one was when I was in Form 5 when my mom went for a woman's seminar. I was engrossed in reading, by the time my mom came home my soul was practically half out of my body.

Oh, the days I see stars when I forgo eating. But that only follows after feeling extremely irritated by the smallest thing I see, the urge to kick and pummel anything nearby. Oh, not forgetting the dizziness and uncontrollable shaking. These are initial stages before I succumb to the feeling of euphoria and my soul goes out of my body (I'd like to think that my soul REALLY flies out).

Back then I can go on just by drinking water for 3-5 days.
(Sigh). Now, I can only go on without food for about two days. I feel old.

It was enlightening: when you're dying (or feel like it). I feel like "There are more than shit in life" after being revived. I feel more serene about going through my mundane life after being revived (or more likely resurrected?!).

Near death experience is very Zen. I'd recommend others to experience near-death moment through starvation. It makes one appreciate life (and food) more.

Brain Drain

2011-02-14T14:59:00.001+08:00

As much as I want to write something colourful like Samito's post, I can't. Couldn't. (I envy people with social life 'coz much of what I do is do assignment, sleep, eat, read and the cycle goes on and on and on). Blahblahblah.

I think I'm going down with depression because lately I've been staring up at the ceiling while lying down on the bed, unable to form a coherent thought. Blank. Reminds me of Hemingway's "nada y pues nada" in one his stories.

Combined with the anxiety of career life. My toilet/shower/bathroom time is preoccupied with "what profession am I going to land in?", "How much am going to earn?" and "Oh I wish my family's filthy rich so I don't have to worry about working and moolah."

The problem is: I overthink things.
Solution: Worry about future later. Now worry about assignments and final examination.

Conclusion: I'm a worrywart therefore, I am unable to produce any humorous nor enlightening piece of writing. That's why I've been submitting crappy written assignments. Thank God I am not suicidal.
God: You're a chicken shit. There's no way you're gonna kill yourself, silly.
Me : Um, yeah. Thank you for telling me the obvious thing.

~Fin~

Ode to Indolence and Slothiness (and Lack of Wit)

2011-01-26T20:46:00.000+08:00

I am extremely lazy to the point that I nearly died out of dehydration today because I am stupid enough to remember that I need to drink at least 2 litres of water everyday. Last week was a horror because hahaha... I shed skin: literally shedding skin like a molting snake.

I.Can.See.Skin.Everywhere.In.My.Room

My room is looking like dumpster because I am too lazy to clean it up.
Must clan everything before midterm break.

Oh, and I was extremely foggy during my Introduction to Moral Philosophy class. The lecturer suddenly popped out of nowhere and sat in front of me and started to ask questions but I was like "...." It went for sometime until I could comprehend that he was asking my friends and I about something.
"Oh, he was asking about asal mana?"
(I mentally scratch my head and pondered, "Er, aku asal mana yeh?")

After a few (long)seconds of thinking I replied something like "lahir KL, tinggal dekat Putrajaya"

Lately, cognitive ability has degenerated into that of a chimp's.

I can see how incoherent this post is. Must charge my brain. Will try to write more during break.

Plague at Home

2010-12-01T17:30:00.000+08:00

Being at home is supposed to make one feels better.

...but I am not feeling one iota of contentment.

First, I have had to wake up early in the morning and send my gran to the clinic everyday. No, I don't hate her. I just hate waking up before 10 o'clock. I get headache and I become extremely clumsy in the morning. My mom said to my brother, "Your sister has the ability to destroy the universe in her sleepy state." It's pretty self-explanatory how destructive I am when I lumber off in sleepiness, bound to break and crash and inflict pain to all around me.

To make things worst, I am losing weight rapidly. Gila betul. Ye lah aku tau aku cakap nak turunkan berat badan tapi bukanlah 1 kilo dalam masa 3-5 hari. Nak kurangkan 3 kilo je tapi ni dah lebih. Moreover, I lose weight while pigging out on everything that is reachable. This is absurd. My body has defied the law of nature. I am ~~ecstatic~~ unhappy with my inhumane body.

(mumbles) Maybe I'm evolving into some sort of fat-sucking creature!? Yeah, yeah. If I can use this ability in an active way, I might be able to cure obesity and thus, achieve world peace. (snort) Ye lah tu.

I also have sore throat. It hurts. I can't speak a lot. It's painful not to be able to listen to my own voice.

Of Time and Space

2010-11-28T15:24:00.001+08:00

Watching Ben 10: Alien Force today makes me feel nostalgic. Ah, the concepts of black hole and time warp are just the cure that I need whenever I reminisce about growing up. There are things that I want to change if I can go back to the past. Like, stopping myself from chewing my nails (I get to have horribly deformed nails because of this nasty habit of mine). Oh, and then there was the time when I changed my mind about pursuing art when I was in primary school. I wished I didn't stop going to classes back then. There is another thing. I wish I have rejected the offer for Bachelor of Education in IIUM. It's a burden to my mental health. I've become extremely narcissistic and neurotic to the point that I am blunt in voicing my opinion. Too blunt, I'd say, that my words can cause serious concussion to other people's self-esteem. I also refuse to believe that there is always a degree of goodness in every single being. I used to believe in second chances. Now, I reject everything that can be called ' giving another chance after making mistake'.

How I wish to be naive again so that my eyes can see things without being pejorative in every single aspect that I can find in human beings. I've become so obsessed with getting answers, I refuse to anything other options than black and white: no excuse can soothe my anger if someone else messes up my pace. My current mental image: annihilator. I get rid of those who obstruct my path, regardless of our relationship's status.

It's kind of terrible to grow up. You either become self-centred or pushover. I'm the later type. I don't care how much harm I cause others as long as I'm safe and secured: I love myself first, second and third. I do fulfil expectations put on me, whenever I feel like putting any efforts to please people. However, I don't do things that do not benefit me: there is always incentive behind everything I do. Kind of a horrible revelation when I reflect about my own personality.

That's why I wish I can turn back the time and somehow fix my bad traits. Which is impossible (going back to the past that is). The only thing that I can do now is acquire positive habits to balance out my negative personality. It's tough, though. Being nice is one thing that requires the most effort for me (laugh).

Making Fast money a.k.a Ponzi Scheme

2010-11-17T22:37:00.002+08:00

It's bad enough that people start to fall into those "make-money-fast" scheme. It's worse when someone starts to insists doing MLM will make you rich that you can buy a Porsche in 6 months. What a scam. How can they not realize that they get less than what they invest (it's worst when they don't get anything at all).

To me, get-rich-fast investments like Swissfund and MLM are Ponzi schemes. Both are fallible: they're destined to collapse either by legal authority or the so called "top leaders" in charge vanish into thin air as soon as they get rich.

I'm amazed there are still people out there who haven't learned their lesson even though they've been duped by these Ponzi schemes. Don't they know the idiom, "Twice bitten, once shy"?

...I think it's one of the reason why Darwin believes human evolves from ape: they just don't get it (about being scammed).

The most annoying part is when those stupid people try to drag you along to the bottom of hell's pit fire. I'm no pushover. My sanity and my reasoning are intact and thank God I'm neurotic. Thanks for the offer but I'm no fool and I loath to part with my money. You can try to convince me to join your stupid business until your mouth froth with blood, but I will still decline your offer to make me crawl on the ground with you.

Ramblings after Exam

2010-11-11T12:37:00.001+08:00

Yeah! Semantics the only paper left. (do frog dance)

oh ah eh!
Personally speaking, when I ranted on my blog about being clueless on many things, there are several terms that I found amusing and baffling.

1) MOFO - don't even know what it stand for but judging by how it's used in context, it refers to shitty people. (googles it) oh, la! it means motherfucker!
2)dipshit - everyone knows it's a curse word but how is it used specifically? (in context, it's used to refer to people with annoying, sassy attitude!?). Hmm, will find out later. (googles it)Means: a moron, a despised person, an ignorant asshole.

3)Why is it that "I wanna eat you" pops up instead of "I want to have sex with you" in stories? I don't dig. (google please!)...it has to do with fellatio. Gross!

...I don't know why but I I always vent out my frustration by being vulgar (and reading perverted stuff).

Alter ego: You're seriously fucked up.hehe...thanks to moi, your inner demon.
Me : ...someone, get me to a shrink. No, scrap that. Get me an exorcist.
Alter ego: You can try but you can't resist me, baby.

...This is the effect of studying too much moral subjects. Beware of moral education. It can get you severely deranged.

Speaking about life quote, Edward (FMA: Brotherhood) puts life's struggle in a nice quote:

A lesson without pain is meaningless. That's because no one can gain without sacrificing something. But by enduring that pain and overcoming it he shall obtain a powerful, unmatched heart. A fullmetal hear.

(Yay to me! I finally managed to watch all 64 episodes of FMA:B)

Recipe yum,yum,yum: How to make Miso Soup.

Serves 4

1/2 a packet of silken bean curd (tofu)
1 litre of dashi
10g wakame seaweed
60ml miso paste
2 spring onions, shredded, to garnish

1. Cut the bean curd into 1cm cubes. Bring dashi to the boil, lower the heat and add wakame seaweed (if not, use nori). Simmer for 1-2 minutes.
2. Pour a little of the soup into a bowl and add the miso paste, stir until it dissolves. Pour the mixture back into the pan.
3. Add the bean curd and heat through for 1 minute. Serve immediately and garnish with the spring onion.

Tip: Reduce heat when the stock boils to avoid loss of flavour.

Where oh where can I get instant dashi~~
Wakame, oh wakame, lalala~
Dashi, dashi, dashi equals to miso soup,
Yummy!

Reading of the week:

1) Cha! Chu! Cho! : a story about a cat's digestive problem. It's umm... very illuminating!?

2)Philosophy in the Classroom by Matthew Lipman, Ann Margaret Sharp & Frederick Oscanyan: philosophy in teaching children and guiding philosophy discussion in classroom. For my Method in Teaching Moral Education.

NEXT: Semantics. Need to cover on synonymy, antonymy and deixis

BOOKS: The Ultimate Retreat from Painful, Agonizing Reality

2010-10-25T10:36:00.000+08:00

I might be the last person who picked up Greyson Chance. Not only him. I might be the only person who doesn't know what happens in this world for the past, I don't know, maybe 1 month? I'm so ignorant -_-

The only thing that I have been doing lately is read books, study for final, read academic stuff, sleep and read manga.

Reading is my retreat from unpleasant aspects of life.

I read because I find adventures, peace and solitude, as well as enlightenment in the stories penned by unknown people who impart their wisdom (or inane ideas) in the plots that they have made.

Talking about retreat-to-the-corner-of-the-world time, there are some books that I would really like to recommend to Syahmi (I know you don't really read thick books so I've mixed some choices here. Do read them when you have time).

A food guide by Consumers Association of Penang. It is an eye-opener to all human beings who eat (every single homo sapien on this planet should read it!). You don't know what kind of poisons you ingest everyday. Scary wooh. I could never have imagined some of the common food that we eat everyday may have small doses of harmful substances in them.

This is a must read for LoTR fans

Taken from Wikipedia:

The Silmarillion comprises five parts. The first part, Ainulindalë, tells of the creation of Eä, the "world that is". Valaquenta, the second part, gives a description of the Valar and Maiar, the supernatural powers in Eä. The next section, Quenta Silmarillion, which forms the bulk of the collection, chronicles the history of the events before and during the First Age, including the wars over the Silmarils which gave the book its title. The fourth part, Akallabêth, relates the history of the Downfall of Númenor and its people, which takes place in the Second Age. The final part, Of the Rings of Power and the Third Age, is a brief account of the circumstances which led to and were presented in The Lord of the Rings.

The five parts were initially separate works, but it was the elder Tolkien's express wish that they be published together. Because J. R. R. Tolkien died before he finished revising the various legends, Christopher gathered material from his father's older writings to fill out the book. In a few cases, this meant that he had to devise completely new material in order to resolve gaps and inconsistencies in the narrative.

Tales of each Age (of the Middle Earth world) are told in this book. There are five parts that tell tales of each Age.

The first tale is a profound story (for me). It's sort of a prelude to how the world of was created and how one of the Illuvatar's children, Melkor, deviated from the creator's wish. The depiction of his character sort of wowed me: charismatic and all powerfull but yet has insatiable desire for the world itself. His character truly overshadows Sauron. Meh. Me like Melkor.

And then there is the part where Beren, a man and Luthien, the first generation of elf fall in love with each other. This is the part where two generations of elf have made a choice for mortality: both Luthien (the first generation) and Elros, the descendant of Beren and Luthien chose to live with mortal life-span.

The book is an awesome prelude to LoTR, I tell you (you have to read it, Syahmi).

The third book of the day is, ta-da!: Through the Looking Glass by Lewis Caroll.

It's the sequel to Alice in Wonderland. This the part where she gets engaged in the battle of the Queens, chess-style: remember the White Queen and the Red Queen? Coming along, Alice meets Humpty Dumpty, Tweedledum and Tweedledee, and the illustrious Jabberwocky (me like the poem, even though it sounds nonsensical).

....................................

Now, I need to make time to watch all those dramas and movies I've collected (in my laptop). Must open my eyes. Don't...sleep..must watch..zzZZZ

YAY! No more assignments!

2010-10-21T09:09:00.001+08:00

Ditto! After all those weeks that I have to endure puffy eyes, heart paplpitation, eye crossing and singing curses, I can finally rest in peace (no, I don't mean R.I.P as in death). After Semantics class today, I'll go into hibernation. (yawn) Can't wait to drift off to Fluffy land.

...final exam is just around the corner but I haven't done any revision yet -_-

Nevermind. I'll study later.

Study la sangat. Study katil.

Old School Blues

2010-10-11T16:13:00.001+08:00

Some things invoke memories of past: old school blues bite. For me, the thing that jolts my memories during those ice age era is manga. Yep, it may make me sound like an otaku when I say this (laughs). I started reading manga since Primary One; my first manga was Doraemon. In the same year, I graduated from reading cat robot from the future to adventure-y stuff like Dragon Quest: Dai no Bouken, Dragon Ball.

(I had a crush on the villain in Da no Bouken, the Great King Vearn. Still does. Always will. Meh.)

Shoujou-ish stuff was the ick back then but after a while it caught like flu. During Standard 2 (or Standard 3, not really sure), I got hooked to Sailormoon and RG Veda and Slayers. Meh! Those old school stuff really rock. I miss reading them.

Currently, I get hooked to Minase Masara's stuff (Boy's Love genre) and The Breaker, a martial art manhwa (even though the characters are emo and the protagonist is undecided: Shioon or Goomoonryong? yeah, I'm a sucker for beautiful art even if the plot is retard).

I'm looking forward to read Vampire Hunter D (drawn by Hideyuki Kikuchi. His illustration is awesome). Mangafox hosted the manga but it has been removed T_T

I feel revitalized after reading manga. Who needs anti-depressant when you have manga? Mah.

Food Promotion.

2010-09-27T09:38:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling extremely happy after reading Alia's post about her favourite food and places to eat. It's really a pick-me-up stuff (I love food too much but I don't have a big stomach to fit everything.lol).

Right. About food promotion there are two things that I want to include in this post.

The first one is Malaysia Cocoa & Choc Day 2010 at Mid Valley on 15-17 October (at Hall 2, people!) There's going to be a lot of chocolatiers from all over the world!

To quote the reviewer:
"Dedicated specially to serious chocolate lovers, chocoholics and chocolate connoisseurs from all walks of life, event highlights includes talks, demos, quizzes, chocolate secret recipes, contests and chocolicious samplings."

Taken from http://eventful.com/kualalumpur/events/malaysia-chocolate-fair-/E0-001-026029870-9@2011010811

I am so going to that event. Ngehehe.

For those who love Japanese style steamboat, there's going to be Nabe Promotion at Sushi King. I'm going to try nabe with miso soup and shoyu soup. Meh. Can't wait to go back home next week.
Hehe, I know about it from Sushi King Alamanda outlet. I am not sure if it is offered at other outlets, though. Oh, and there will also be Sushi King RM2 bonanza where you get to eat sushi for RM2 per plate (also at Alamanda. not sure if it's the same at other outlets).

I know I'm so lampi but I just get to know Baskin-Robbins' Pink Day (every Wednesday until teh end of this year) last time I went to BR with my mom. There was this guy with pink key chain who tried to get 2 ice creams at a cheap price (he looked so desperate when he tried to find something pink on him, my mom and I couldn't help but laughed about it at that time).

You simply show that you have anything pink on you (pen, nails, tie?! lol, etc) and pay only RM 7.50+ to get 2 of your most favorite flavors !!!
Additional : upgrade your sugar cone to a yummy Waffle Cone with only RM 1.50+ !

Taken from http://www.everyday.com.my/promotion/2010/3/Baskin-Robbins-Malaysia-Wednesday-is-BR-Pink-Day.shtml

Uwahhh!

2010-09-24T13:30:00.000+08:00

No vocab came into my mind when I wrote the title above, therefore there is the stupid phrase(?).

I feel sleepy, get tired easily and has become a bumbling fool whose head is always foggy without the slightest notion of reality. Yes, I'm currently mired in Lala Land.

I haven't the slightest idea why am I in this condition. Even my lecturers notice my lack of focus in class: I get really low mark for my midterm papers. It is not a question not studying or lack of preparation. I got blank when I see the tests.

Maybe I got sick with some unknown disease of attention deficit or some alien bugs.
I've always been sick in the head so I know for sure that there is nothing wrong with my mind.

Oh lalala~ maybe I don't get my quota of perverted materials?!

Alter ego: Ignore the chinchilian manquot. She's a perverted neurotic.
Me: Oh yes, my existence defies the law of sanity.
Alter ego: (snort) Says the mad cow.

My Family and I (Ramadhan episode)

2010-09-05T22:31:00.000+08:00

My mom gets lonely now that her children are staying away from home for most part of the year. Haha... tu lah, asyik bising kat aku sebab duduk rumah je masa cuti. Bila aku kat uni sibuk pulak suruh balik rumah.

Putting that aside, Ramadhan scenario at home has not changed a bit.

After Tarawikh, we'd go back home, flip the channel and talk. At approximately 2 o'clock in the morning my mom retires to her room. zzZZZ....

She'd wake up an hour later, holler at us to go to sleep (because my brother and I stays up until after Subuh prayer).
"Budak-budak, pergi tidur! Nanti bil elektrik naik!"

...ignore mak....

at 4 a.m, my mom would wake up, check on us again and start her line (see above). Being ignored, she would mumble something incomprehensible (I suspect she mumbles in Thai, though we have never been able to verify the case -_-).

At 5 a.m, my brother would go, "Mak! Bangun makan sahur!"

And I'd reply, "Diam lah kau! Pergi la makan sendiri!"

Then my mom would yell something like,"Diam lah korang!menjerit macam monyet!"

After all the commotion, we eat our sahur, my mom would persistently make us (more like shove in our forcefully)eat a lot.

Stuffed, we would sit on the couch like ular sawa kekenyangan.

This is when a new argument starts: the lack of space on the couch and other matters pertaining to the hierarchy of familial power. Shouts would ensue from each member of our family.

Adik: "Mak gemuk lah. Duduk sana sikit!"
Mak: "Ish, mana ada! Korang yang ambik space banyak sangat!"
Kakak: "Tepi sikit! Dah la bontot korang besar!"
Mak: "Korang patut hormat mak!"
Kakak: "Tak de kena-ngena dengan duduk kat sofa. Tepi!"
Adik: "Korang ni menyemak je!"

If I'm too sleepy to join in the argument, my mom and my brother would usually argue about the rights for the floor cushions.

It's really noisy at our house. I pity our neighbours who have to endure all the din we make -_-U

My family's repast is arguing. We don't need to pay for vocal training. We already have a vocal coach at home: my mom. Isn't that grand? (laughs)

Ersatz

2010-08-25T14:18:00.000+08:00

I'm doing less and less substituting for other people lately (sigh with relief).

Maybe it's because I'm taking "no cock-and-bull" stand. I get ticked off when someone uses stupid excuses when they don't do their work. I used to be extremely audacious (more so than before) in voicing my mind (and action).

Now, I don't even have to tell off those leeches to do their work. I simply write off their names from the cover page without further warning: there is no way I am going to let someone take credit for what others have sweated for.

The only thing that pisses me off right now is a person who does not take responsibility seriously and excuses herself with bullshit reasons.

I am not angry. I'm just frothing foam from my mouth, feeling livid and extremely wroth with that inane, gormless, dimwit, lame brained girl.

Patience? Mercy? Don't expect that from me: nothing changes all year round for my personality. My patience runs very thin during Ramadhan. That person can expect me spurting fire from my mouth when we meet again. Oh, I so want to kick her arse off the universe.

Ramadhan, Tarawikh and School Life

2010-08-18T14:57:00.000+08:00

I know I made a resolve this year: "Ramadhan ni aku nak kerap pergi buat solat tarawikh."

However, I get too lazy or too tired to go (because I usually finish class at 6.30, with the exception on Thursday and Friday).

Not only I'm too lazy to go for tarawikh, I also renege on my promise to eat properly. I get too lazy to buy food, I usually break fast with biscuits and drink (or whatever I have in my room). No, I am not on diet or anything. I'm just plain lazy to walk a few meters away from my room to buy food. -_-

Ah, apart from that, we're having a video shoot for teaching writing course. Hehe, it's really awesome to be in a recording studio loh, what with the lighthing and the teleprompter (rasa macam macam news caster baca skrip guna benda tu).

I have one assignment to submit next week on ethics in everyday life, Arabic midterm this Saturday, two more midterm exam next week, one presentation on financial control systems and panic payment (for my co-curricular class), and actual recording for syntax in writing next week.

It's raining miserably everyday, my sneakers got wet every time I get back to my hostel. Don't mistaken me God. I like cool weather but can you please make it cloudy, not rainy? Thanks.

Hud, I gave you my number already (in the comment section). If you come by at my uni, give me a holler, will you?

p/s: Syahmi and the rest of you guys who bother to read this post, take care of your health. If you feel like fainting, make sure you lower yourself to the ground. It is unsightly to see people crashing on the floor when they faint. Go to the clinic or skip class if you don't feel well.

Drabble, Babble, Cackle

2010-08-10T17:30:00.000+08:00

I'm in a quagmire of assignments. Wargghh! Tensyen nya aku!

Cough. That's old news.

IIUM had this aurah awareness campaign and the guards started to fine students, especially females. It's so silly. The girls here wear proper attire in the campus meh. There was this girl who wore track bottom and top yang labuh who was fined on whims. Oh, not to forget a student was nearly given a summon when she was driving because "Lengan baju awak terselak," according to the pak guard.

What more need to be covered? The whole face. After this we can all go wear heave veils and stumble around. Impeded vision and stumbling around? It's a small price to pay if we can cover our ugly faces. "Yes!," the Student Council enthusiastically shouted. "Covering every part of your body, even your bulu roma is necessary because we are practicing Islamic culture".

Yeah, my ass. Someone even made a joke about starting a new fashion trend in IIUM. Let's all wear baju kelawar with inner. Then we can all avoid sinning (of exposing one's aurah). Yes! Bersayap adalah lebih baik.

BTW, I'm tempted to say this,"Why can't we learn to be IM MORAL (remove the spacing)?" I have way too many moral education subjects, I am tempted to do something immoral.

Of things that are not black or white

2010-08-03T09:28:00.000+08:00

I love to read.

Lately, my reading materials have expanded to that of erotic stuff?!

Lol. I am currently reading Boy's Love novels.

Not that I'm into gay relationship or queer guys, but the way the stuff written are eye opener. I didn't even realize that most homosexuals initially have difficulty to admit that they have abnormal sexual orientation until I read BL stuff. Trying to constantly suppress their homosexuality is a long, constant battle against depression. It is really hard to deny yourself for what you are.

Posting this does not mean that I support homosexuality. I know it is wrong because God has created us for what we are supposed to be. However, life is not as simple and clear cut as black and white. That's why we are not supposed to easily condemned those who do not fit with the norm of society. I think I won't be really disgusted when someone admits that he/she is a homosexual because I know it must have taken a lot of courage for a homosexual to admit that he/she is one.

syntax

2010-07-31T09:54:00.000+08:00

I am currently in a pinch.
I'm supposed to write a script for my Teaching Writing for Secondary School subject.

The topic: syntax. The highlights are 1) sentence structures, 2) sentence boundaries and 3) stylistic choices.

I need to explain these items in a manner that suitable for secondary school students. The script needs to be approved in 4 weeks before I can do video shoot for this stuff. How in Mother Goose's name am I suppose to explain syntactic properties to a bunch of teenagers when I don't even understand the subject itself???

I really hate linguistic courses.

Ketawa bagaikan pontinanak.

2010-07-23T11:11:00.000+08:00

I caught a laughing disease: ketawa pontianak.
For some unknown reason, I laugh for the slightest thing that I found funny (tak lawak sangat pon)and I sound like a mad Jane. It's freaky when I hear myself laughing like a maniac (shudders).

Ramblings

2010-07-19T17:03:00.000+08:00

It takes ages to open FB so I'm writing on this blog (which I am not supposed to do since my class starts now.haha). I've built up a lot of things I am not surprised if I blow up like Krakatoa these days. It's only the first week of semester and yet, I have managed to accumulate a lot of stress. Will go have plastic surgery on my mental image.

BTW, I love my Teaching Writing for Secondary School class coz Dr zainurin is a huge laugh. My face literally lights up and I can't control my face muscles: I smile throughout the class period. It's amazing how a guy who works in education field can be so fun. I've never had a teacher like that.

Oh, I think durian will remain as the "Stinky Fruit King" in my life forever. It's smells like putrefaction (rot, FYI).

Another year to go...

2010-07-12T14:20:00.001+08:00

I'm currently in my third year. The start of the new semester is the markstone of maturity (in age). Ahh! The wisdom that comes with age. Not!

The ritual of coming age has been done (dragged by mom): I have already registered myself as a voter. Jadi ye, kalau tahun depan ada election kena pergi mengundi.

Huu...when I read Syahmi's post, I got really shad becaush I shtill ave another year to go.

Future career prospect: penganggur berjaya kot. I'm still undecided meh.

I'm pissed

2010-07-07T10:42:00.000+08:00

I'm drowned by my mother's constant gossiping and her stupid rivalry with her friends. I'm the one who has to listen to her bitching all day long. How worse can this week gets? Female genus homo sapien can get down and dirty with when they hold grudges, especially against the same gender.

Another brilliant example of the so called friendship between women. Blegghh!!!

How do you know you're being hit on (by guys/girls)?

2010-07-06T08:59:00.000+08:00

Among valuable things you can get from having conversations with your friends and acquaintances are: 1) you get to update your database on what's going with them and the world and 2) you get to know things that you don't know about yourself. This is the reason why I'm posting this dratted stuff here.

Flashback on the previous week:

I was bored. My primitive tiny-teenage urges acted up: I was sorely tempted to call up people. That was one of the "once in a blue moon" things that I did (among other things that are unmentionable. Drat! I love being a kid!). So, what's the relationship of my calling people and the topic? Well, I chatted with a few girlfriends, and among the things that came up were about people I used to know/met and their status. Being the ignorant ungoliant that I am, I was kind of surprised when they popped questions about our male friends/ acquaintances. "What happen to ****?"
My answer,"Uhm, I dunno lah. What happened to him, ah?"

The mentioned friends (female) replied something like,"Poor guy."

Me: What? He got into accident kah?

Them: No. Did he contact you after (some event or camp or seminar)?

Me: Yep. But then I lost my sim card/ I got fed up with him pestering me/ I never reply his messages/ I totally forgotten about that guy (either way, choose one option).

Them: He was hitting on you, babe.

Me: Haha... that's very funny.

Them: Seriously.

Me: How come? I never noticed. He didn't say anything.

Them: You're as dense as a lamp post. You should get a label on your forehead

....or their response would be:

Them: You were busy being mean to him.

....or their response would be:

Them: You are so ignorant.

.....................................................................................

The bottom line is, how do you know you're being hit on? I'm clueless, so hey, don't blame me for not noticing! I'm not a psychic.

A real man would have take a straight shot out of his glass and tells the girl he likes her (applicable to both gender. or all gender (trans)?!. I did that with all my previous boyfriend meh!). What's so hard about that?

New words and phrases!

2010-07-01T10:52:00.000+08:00

Tush: (slang) buttocks; usually used to describe a hot majesty doing something silly. E.g: Orlando Bloom was caught swinging his tush singing "Hero" by Enrique Iglesias.

Batting for the other group: sexual preference for same gender.

Big donuts, small donuts, round donuts: a variety of donuts; this phrase is usually used to show off to others you have a lot of donuts while others don't (go figure).

avaricious: fancy word for greedy.

between Dante and Vergil: (syn. with Devil May Cry) a condition where one is unable to decide between two options (usually used in a situation that involves hooking up with males/women).

brows like tent/tenting brows: happens when one frowns hard.

turd: poop (usually shaped like a log. can also be found in other shapes). Can be used as an offensive insult. E.g: That show is utterly turd.

The Edge of Legitimacy

2010-07-01T08:55:00.000+08:00

21. The legitimate age of adulthood. Many websites sanctioned for adults will be accessible once you're one (an adult). It's the only thing that makes it worth a while to think that I'm turning 21 this Sunday (sigh).

There are certain issues that have been playing in my mind lately due to, of course, aging factor. Like, " LIVE LIKE A VIRGIN BUT WHO THE HELL WANTS TO BE ONE FOREVER. IT SUCKS". Or, "I'M FINANCIALLY UNSECURED. HOW LONG DOES IT TAKE TO LEECH MY MOM UNTIL I CAN EARN MY OWN MONEY?". And then there's "IN WHAT DIRECTION AM I GOING TO BE IN THE FUTURE?" I am still confused to what I'm going to be in the future. I'm questioning myself what mettle, and what strength do I possessed, what profession should I choose: I'm in limbo. You fear what you don't know. I do not fear this uncertainty that I have. I am terrified of it. What if don't graduate cum laude? If I don't then can I still get a good job? What if I can't get a job at all? If I manage to get one, will I excel in it, or would I fail miserably? What if I don't fit in the scheme of the society?

Time moves on on without waiting anyone. You do something, then you can't reverse it back. That's why you weigh your options and make your decisions carefully so that you can avoid making mistakes or minimize negative outcomes. My reasoning sounds logical but then there is this tiny voice inside my head that says "Even if you try to make the best decisions in your life, you're bound to make mistakes. One or two of those can turn up to be something major. You miss up a step, and there's bound to be a time when you can't even do damage control. When that time comes, you're toast." I get scared thinking about it. I don't think I can fall back and cry for help from my family. My parents are practically undependable, especially my father.

Adulthood is a terrifying thing. It's sort of like plunging yourself in a deep dark hole, having faith that it's only a few metres deep instead of three thousands feet and everything hope that everything is going to turn up ok in the end.

This is my confession: I'm scared of being an adult. Call me stupid, tell me I'm immature or anything, but being an adult is one of my innermost fear.

Pain of growing up

2010-06-17T21:36:00.000+08:00

I bang my head on the wall, "bang!","bang!", "bang!" to ease the pain in head. I scratched the wall with my own fingers until the bleed, the blood running down my hands like tiny rivulets of scarlet rivers. I kicked against the wall, pleading to the unknown force to make this pain in me stop.

The pain doesn't go away.

"It f^&%$#@ hurts!"

"Stop!," sobbing, "please stop it".

The unknown looks at me silently, wearing a mask of pity and sadness.

I screamed at it, "Why me?", pointing an accusing finger at the figure.

"It is the pain of life, child," he sighs,"One cannot feel bliss bliss without pain, one cannot be happy without sadness. No one can escape it, this pain. 'Tis the way of the world."

I love myself first, second, and third.

2010-06-15T19:46:00.000+08:00

I love myself so much, I can never look at others and fall deeply in love with them (well, superficially, I love them but that's all). Does that make any sense to you my beloved (a.k.a me)?

Yes, oh yes, my precious self. You are the only one that loves me as I am as none shall.

Hmm, don't I sound like Gollum (LOTR) saying, "Yess, my preciouss"

-An excerpt from "Rambling of A Neurotic Girl: A Revelation on The Twisted Mind of Saki"

As opposed to Cak: Aku tak cuti!

2010-06-10T14:11:00.000+08:00

next week ada exam. hari isnin paper testing and assessment in education. ada gap a few days. jumaat ada paper arabic.

TT_TT

Dah tak peduli, I just want to pass my arabic. I just don't want to repeat that paper.

Ada test Arrabic jap lagi

2010-06-07T10:42:00.000+08:00

hari ini ada test. Arabic. tapi tak study pon. Hahaha...mampos lah saya.

My pick of jewelleries

2010-06-03T10:24:00.000+08:00

Jewellery is an arm for life. I read this motto somewhere (can't remember from which ads though). Jewellery designers create beautiful accessories for people to wear. People don't wear accessories just for vanity only: they wear them as armors, as charms, as protections to ward insecurity and to boost self confidence. I like the concept of that: jewelleries as armors for adults. Accessories go a long way to help boost your self-image (and therefore boost your confidence to face whatever comes).

When I browsed through stylishdesign.com, I couldn't help but post this here. The website has a lot of accessories with beautiful designs. These are some of them that caught my eyes simply because they're simple and elegant.

The top one is macintosh-style rose stud earrings, which is awesome. It's simple and pwetty.

And then, there's the red coral pendant with really nice details on the upper silver stem. This one is simply elegant.

Next to it is a flowing design of amethyst bangle.

Ooh, and there is the pearl pendant. Simple, elegant and stylish. Reminds me of The Little Mermaid story. It's an ubber-sexy item bebeh.

The last item is an amber bangle.

Huhu...I can't help but drool over these jewelleries.

Even monkeys can attend university...

2010-06-02T10:27:00.000+08:00

IIUM is plagued by monkeys (and wild dogs). Tak payah pergi zoo,datang UIA boleh tengok monyet spesis Macau whatever. Sekali tengok macam marching army, berderet dengan mak bapak, anak cucu cicit, nenek, datuk moyang, semua ada.

Masa facilitate for Program motivasi sekolah rendah, ada la a group of monkeys jalan berderet dekat atas bumbung. Semua pelawat excited tengok sambil cakap dengan seronoknya,"Eh, monyet lah! Tengok, tengok".

Pada masa itu, Ian pon mengeluarkan one liner yang sangat lawak, "We accept everything here". ROFL. Ye, ye universiti kami menerima sesiapa sahaja (sebagai pelajar), termasuk monyet.

Unfortunately, we did not take picture of the monkeys around here. They're ferocious creature. Any unwanted attention given to them directly can result in being chased by keluarga monyet

23 Things About Saya -A reply to to syahmi's tag

2010-05-27T13:07:00.000+08:00

Random schizzes about myself. Here we go.

1) Suka makan, cakap pasal makanan & tengok gambar makanan.
2) Rasa Hud ada kaki yang cantik (shapely). Pernah mintak tukar kaki dengan dia masa interview Medsi.
3) Tak ramai kawan.
4) Tak suka keep in touch (contact kawan2 once in a blue moon kot) which explains no. 3.
5) Benci/takut/fobia dekat menatang yang ada lebih daripada 4 kaki = serangga.
6) Suka cakap ikut sedap hati, tak peduli sangat perasaan orang lain.
7) Sangat suka dekat orang/objek/tempat yang cantik.
8) Suka merapu.
9) Suka tahan pee (tabiat paling tak sihat -_-).
10)Pernah peluk strangers (a few times)sebab rasa diorang sgt cantik/handsome/cute.
11) Aku suka lelaki gay?!
12) I love my friends fiercely.
13) Though, I love my lovers loosely (haha..sebab tu x pernah lekat lama kot).
14) Paling tak suka pegang telefon. Sebab tu la jarang sangat-sangat telefon orang or jawab telefon. Takkan angkat kalau rasa tak nak angkat bila orang call (termasuk lah mak saya sendiri).
15) I keep changing my mind about what I'm going to be in the future (masa kecik nak jadi doktor, dah besar sikit nak jadi archeologist, pastu nak jadi lecturer, then nak jadi translator, after that nak jadi journalist. Sekarang ni? Hmm..rasa nak jadi scientist plak.
16) Baru perasan probability of Samy Vellu pakai rambut palsu sangat tinggi (99.9%) lepas Syahmi bagi tau.
17) I think I'm sexually frustrated right now.
18) Paling benci dekat orang yang terlalu dependent dekat orang lain.
19) I never forget grievances done to me.
20) Jarang berdendam, tapi kalau aku laknat someone tu, sampai bertahun-tahun aku tak maafkan. Ada budak tu buat aku marah gila masa Darjah 1, sampai sekarang pon aku still tak maafkan dia. (AMARAN: jangan ikut perangai ini).
21)Rasa Fatin, ex-roomate masa Asasi TESL kat Melaka, sangat cool sebab she's outspoken. Kalau ada tak puas hati, dia akan cakap. Aku suka orang macam tu.
22) Syahmi is like an anchor to my sanity because he's so dramatic, he makes tragedies sound like comedies.
23) Pandai mengurut. Maybe one day boleh buka rumah urut (LOL).

Tag: Hud, urm..Alif, lagi.. Ninie

It's a blue, blue day.

2010-05-20T17:55:00.000+08:00

I'm writing this crap because I feel sad: I sucks in Arabic, have less than Rm10 in hand and feeling lonesome.

Alter ego: Why don't you call someone?

'Cause it's not cool to put other people in a damper. Being sad alone is better tahn dragging other people along.

I am leading a pathetic, unfulfilled life. Gotta do something worthwhile. Maybe I'll grow balls of my own (laughs).

Things that I learned from:

2010-02-09T12:18:00.000+08:00

Ian:
we went to the KFC at KLCC after a field work.
"Order apa?"
"Emm, snack plate 1, original. nak tambah satu lagi ubi."

I was blur, and said, "oh, KFC ada jual ubi jugak ke?"
after a few moment of silence,
"kentang lah"

"Ubi? Kentang?!!" I was laughing like hell!

Another thing is the word "bela".

We were talking about her laptop,-it needed a reformat.

"I nak pergi bela laptop."

I was like "HA? Tak tau pun laptop boleh bela?"

"Bela tu baiki la. Korang tak tau ke?"
"tak pernah dengar pun. ada ke maksud macam tu dalam kamus dewan?"

I was rolling on the floor laughing sampai senak perut selama 1/2 hour.

Farah:

We went to pasar malam near the entrance of UIA. Masa nak beli barang, she proposed a theory "macam mana nak beli makanan yang sedap dekat pasar malam".

"Tengok orang yang jual tu macam mana. Kalau dia selekeh, mesti tak sedap. Kalau ada makcik jual makanan pakai rantai besar-besar, guarantee tak sedap punya lah."

Ian and I laughed. "Boleh pakai ke teori you tu Farah? Ada pulak macam tu."

" Betul lah. My dad yang cakap. Tengok char kuey toew yang kita beli kat kedai tadi. Sedap kan? Pak cik tu pakai smart je, pkai kereta V6."

"tak ada kena-mengena pun dengan sedap."

"Ada. Gerai yang lagi satu tu punya (char kuey teow) nampak tak sedap. Orang yang jual pun nampak selekeh."

It's raining, it's pouring

2010-01-29T14:12:00.000+08:00

The sound of tapping fingers on a keyboard accompanies the rhapsody of rain and storm. I glanced out the window, fascinated by the flashes of lights crashing down, the sound so thunderous it reverberates the earth with the like of the sound of crashing simbals.

I wonder, how those puny worms could stand being assaulted by such loud noise?

Hoho...maybe because they're so slimy (they have lotsa liquid in their mass body) they get to suppress the sound, eh?! I'm such a genius.

Glossary

foodie: stuff that you eat.
chompchompnyumnyum: the act of eating.
aqualibrium: the ability to drink water while dancing around, or while fighting off a big pest without spilling the water itself.
walk like a poodle: jalan lembap macam ..., control ayu.
lick my nose: a sign of disapproval.

Exam!ExamExam!Assignment tak siap lagi! Warghh!!!

2010-01-28T15:11:00.000+08:00

siapa boleh tolong?
siapa?
siapa?
emak tak mau tolong buatkan,
assignment saya.
hahaha,
padan muka,
sapa suruh main sakan,
kan dah jadi gila.

Febuari,
ada exam Issues in TESL,
tapi assignment tak siap lagi,
My monthly itinerary is in shamble!
jap gi kang kena la aku sawan B*%#.

Mummy!
Tolong!
Tolong!

Ustaz Kabuye bagi keja manyak,
Dr Mastura suruh buat article review,
sploh page pulak tu,
Dr ISA punya chart bila
nak siap?
Aku tak tau!
huhuhu TT_TT

Bio as your front

2009-12-29T13:35:00.001+08:00

I just realized that whenever I sign up for sites, I'm usually required to enter my bio. Front cover is very important for any magazine to be a sell-out. The same goes as your social networking profile. The cooler (or the weirder) your bio is, the more invites you get.
I think it's time for me to step up and redo my bio lah. However, this issue puts me in a dilemma on how to best present myself: I can't seem to write up a cool bio!
Should I do it like this,

Bio

Name: haha collander colonel sanders VII
Age: Forever 17
DOB: Inconsequential. I'm immortal, hah!
Horoscope: Virgo (Virgo pic seems to be way HOT than a ketam bunga)
Height: I'm as tall as a coconut tree
Blood type: ABCDE. What can I say, I'm just out of this world, bebeh.
Favourite: Beautiful people/things
Hate: Ugly people/things

or should i do a normal one like this:

Bio

Name: Peoople call me Saki
Age: 20 now but the 0 behind will change annually.
DOB: I was born in the great 1989, July 4th.
Horoscope: Ketam bunga @ Cancer (no, not Cancer, the disease)
Height: 151 cm
Blood type: Boring O
Favourite: Too many things to be included here.
Hate: Refer to 'Favourite' section.

So, which one should I use?

Kerja banyak!!!

2009-12-28T20:36:00.000+08:00

My house is nearby, so it's easy for me to commute to and fro from uni to home lah.
Trying to steel myself against temptation, I decided to not go back home last Friday. Iyelah, cuti 4 hari, boleh main game, lepak-lepak, tengok TV, etc..
"Macam tu bila assignments nak habis, bongok!," said my alter ego.
So I didn't go back home, kononnya nak buat assignments lah.
I ended up sleeping most of the time.
Come Sunday, I looked at my list of assignments:
1)argumentative essay-do outline for the effectiveness of affective education in Malaysia.
2)Why people learn English and outline on ways to facilitate English learning for future generation-do ppt slides.
3)Fry readability chart-find a story that's suitable for form 1-2 students-do an analysis on the text.
4) hafal surah al-Baqarah 101-102, An-Nisaa 34 and the whole surah of Al-Mulk.
5) Buat teks ucapan-BM kerjaya (possible topic: ucapan majlis perkahwinan)
6)presentation on Moral Development in middle childhood.

Tak ada satu pon yang dah siap.
Pergi bilik Ian.Gosip 3 jam. Habis task no.6.

All in all, sama ja balik ke tak: tak habis kerja pun.

timetable

2009-12-16T18:49:00.000+08:00

seeing that syahmi has posted his schedule, I'm tempted to show off mine.
ehem, here it goes:

MONDAY & WEDNESDAY
10-11.30am Moral Development from Psychological Perspective
2-3pm Bahasa Melayu Kerjaya
5-6-30pm Islam, Knowledge & Civilization

TUESDAY & THURSDAY
8.30-10am English for Academic Purpose
10-11.30am Issues in TESL
2-3.30pm Teaching Reading for Secondary School

FRIDAY
ilek class

SATURDAY
8-10am Family Management & Parenting

It's a very dull schedule, with boring subjects. Yawn~
p/s: I wouldn't mind swapping schedule with you syahmi

Drabbles of this month

2009-12-14T09:20:00.000+08:00

I still haven't achieved my GPA target, which sucks, but at least it's not going down either: I'm like the goat who's sitting on the gate, waiting to jump and kiss the flat surface of the earth with its fragrant grass. Ok, I'm crapping again -_-

UIA is not a dump, but its not a droll place either (i guess that's because we still have KLCC nearby, which is to say it's not that cool of a place but still, a monument of civilization nearby calms my heart).

Oh, ahah!
I'm taking up to 8 subjects this semester (didn't I do that every sem? Oh yeah, I did! How wonderful!)
Ehem, UIA is such a wonderful higher education institution. It defies the nature of normality whereby we, it's students are introduced to new subjects every semester, mentioned with effect at the moment it is announced. I still have 8 hours worth of my precious time to be spent for Arabic.

Moving on about book raves: I'm currently hooked on Mallorean saga by David Eddings. It is basically a continuation of the Belgariad series by the same mentioned author. The story is basically about a hero on a quest to save the world and oh, his son is kidnapped by the opposing faction of destiny. There is one part of the story which I like most: Belgarath the Sorcerer was having a conversation with the devious Silk a.k.a Prince Kheldar of Drasnia about good and evil. Belgarath simply said that the concept of good and bad is too complicated. To indirectly quote the sorcerer on his view about the struggle between two fates: It's more about 'them' and 'us'. Good and evil are too much simple too be defined. I kind of agree with him. Each and everyone of us has a fixed concept about good and bad (or evil), and we tend to look at our perspective only, rather than looking at other's. Call me agnostic or whatever, I still think that good and bad is not a fixed concept as truth can be subjective for individuals.

Bilingualism

2009-11-02T15:14:00.000+08:00

Def: knows more than 1 language in the same modality (Japanese+Englsih: modality writing), and knows more than 1 language in different modality (Jap:speaking+English writing).

Becoming bilingual:
1)simultaneous learning situation-more than 1 L at the same time.
1P-1L, 1P-2L
E.g: A child learns 2 languages at the same time at home when 1 parent speaks BM and one parent speaks Eng.

2)Sequential learning situation-intro to 2ndL after 1stL has been introduced (possibility: through different stage of acquisition)
E.g: situation with children of immigrants

Transfer effect of L1 on L2 learning-Not every pair of languages can be expected to be acquired at the same rate
1. similarity of syntax
2. similarity of vocab
3. sound system

Language shift: happens when a community abandon their native language and collectively shift to speaking another one instead.
-It can happen slowly or rapidly.
-Happens when 2 cultures/population with differnt languages conme into intense conatact =those who shift are the weaker/minority group (tupically), sometimes majority shift language.

Language Loss:loss of langauge due to langauge standardization, lack of respect for the dialect or culture
= dialect loss
E.g: England is dialect-hostile, made standard English a compulsory-no dialect.

Language Death: complete dissaperance of a language.
-usually a gradual process.
Types of Language death:1. Sudden: all speakers are killed or dead.
E.g: Tasmanian case.
2. Radical- under threat and political repression, or genocide (Nez Perce).
3. Gradual-minority languages dies out in contact with socially dominant language.
4. Bottom-to-top: survives only in a few contexts (e.g: Latin; liturgical use)

Revitalization languages:Refers to any deliberate effort to recover the spoken use of a language that is no longer spoken or learned at home
1. corpus planning
-modernization of lexicon (vocab)
-implement writing system
2. status planning
-build lay loyalty
-accept lanaguage in broader range of social functions

this week's ranting

2009-10-28T18:50:00.000+08:00

yay! exam is around the corner (next tuesday, 3rd NOvember 2009). I haven't read the foggiest idea on what the hell I'm reading. Yippee!!! what a joy!
I discovered that i can be very vapid when I'm confused.
haha..i'm currently reading "baby bitch", which has nothing to do with language shift, language losss, language death. linguistic ppl, care to shed some light on this particular topic to me? i'm a friggin blockhead (i assure you my precious self, this condition shall poof when we're out of uni, yes it will my preciousss)
i've been wondering whether syahmi has ever worn any pink articles before (the effect of men wearing anything pink is ghastly) and fervently hope he doesn't.
btw, i want to rectify what Ian has said to me this week: I am not turning into a goody-two-shoes and I certainly have not been curb my tongue for the sake of other people's sentiment: I'm just overtired and if I try to be argumentative, I'd slurr my speech and it'll become vapid since I can't deliver my curses in colourful manner. Conclusion: I am so NOT nice and I will never be. Wait till hell freeze over!

I had an accident with a rented car last Saturday, haha...

2009-10-07T12:45:00.000+08:00

It sucks. I was driving a rented car and I hit a pillar in front of Mahallah Asiah. There are piccies of the the whole thing; car, dent and tow truck.
I had to replace the left side shaft (it F&*^ing broke! the thing's supposed to be really sturdy and all) and cement the dent, paint it, blah,blah. The repair costs me nearly RM300. I can't believe it, since the shaft should cost about rm30 but the workshop charged rm80, that was friggin gila! and the owner wanted me to do the allignment, which is supposed to be her responsibility in the first place because she rented her defective car and she didn't bother to service the thing which explains why the bloody shaft got broken and my friends and I could have been killed if we had driven it outside the campus.
We were traumatized by that accident (I was really going to cry). Luckily, there was this nice uncle and Akhmal's friends who helped us with the stupid car since it won't budge (it got stuck in the middle of the archway since the shaft broke and the car couldn't be steered away from there)
(laughs maniacally) My life sucks! Gawd, why can't u just make a hole appear and suck me right down the bottom 'coz you made my life friggin horrible!

Haha...

2009-09-24T16:23:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya. kalau ada salah silap, mintak maaf la ye.
am too lazy to celebrate raya this year, don't have any energy left. UIA sucked everything away. I hate that place (throwing mental bombs at that ***)
btw, my hol sucks.

Fatin said I will gradually embrace the place. Sorry dahling, my hatred towards that place grows ever strong.

Syahmi, I'm glad you are thriving happily in USM.

Aimi, even though she always complain about being run ragged by the activities in UPM, she sounds like she's having a blast studying there.

Boy, am I glad you guys are doing fine surviving in uni!

I know complain too much (I complained about going to UiTM before but in the end I was ok with that place) but I can't help it. My life really sucks. I'm stuck with bloodsuckers who did nothing and yet still get better CGPA which makes me angry I f****** don't understand how it becomes like that. I can't really comprehend my syllabuses, I'm taking way too little of TESL-based subjects. Why the hell do I need to learn moral and bloody social works, fu*ktard things which I can barely understand I feel like being dunk underwater while learning how to spell MONKEY which is really frustrating I HATE those classes. I can't really talk with people around me other than ian and fafa but it's still limited because I don't feel like I can confide a lot of stuff to them and farah has limited capacity of understanding anything complex and dina, bleh!, Akmal sucks macam biskut and most of the people there are too busy or not very understanding I'm scared i'd be condemned if i voice out what's on my mind, or they're just too pious it's suffocating to be there. WHY?WHY?WHY CANT'T I JUST ADAPT LIKE YOU GUYS?

I never cried about lame stuff like this before; I feel like I'm going to fail in everything for eternity because I can't even be comfortable and do things my way and I feel like such an invalid because I'm not good in being nice and friendly and all, I feel like fake doing things in UIA's way. I want to channge badly but my mom said she can't afford to pay more to send me somewhere else. She just doesn't want me to quit UIA because she bloody loves it. I hate everything around me, my face hurts like hell because I can't smile and I frowned way too much and even though I try smiling, most of the time, they are fake it's tiring.

I just can't call anyone and talk to any friends anymore because I would cry buckets and I don't want to look pathetic.

Mesti pergi Sunway Pyramid: end of year event

2009-09-05T12:42:00.000+08:00

Mari la pergi comic festival nnt.

Biskut raya dan ceritera....

2009-09-05T12:26:00.000+08:00

Promosi kuih raya dlm toilet
*M cuci tgn kt toilet, jumpa plak S. Mereka bersembang dan M pon ajak pg bilik dia.
M: dtg la blk aku.
S: angkat kening, "buat apa?"
M: sample kueh raya la
S: oo...puasa x cukup dh mkn kuih raya!sedap ke kueh raya kau?
M: hehehe...mst la. pas sample, beli la yek. harga aku dpt murah skit.

i was laughing like hell when i heard that advertisement. venue: toilet mahallah ruqayyah, level 2

lagi cerita kuih raya....

Mak Ian suruh dia jual kuih raya kt lectureres ktorg. kami tolong la dia pikir cam na nk repackage kuih raya utk sample. bukak-bukak jer..kami diperkenalkan dgn jenis-jenis kuih raya (ye la.aku ni kan jakun sket pasal kuih2 ni).
I: ni kuih semprit
S: Oo...camtu kuih semprit.
(masuk satu dlm mulut) sedap la.
F: rasa gak. Uhm, sedap.
I: ni plak chocolate chips, n tart nenas
S: yang tu I kenal
I & F:Pandai S!kenal pon!---S sgt jahil pasal mknn local. aku baru tau karipap ada inti lain selain drpd potato.
Pastu asyik cakap "sedap!" n sumbat kuih raya masuk mulut. rase cam x sempat je nk bg sample ktt org lain -_-

FYI, I've tasted bakso! yeah! agak ok la jugak.

The Mating of Shark

2009-08-18T15:04:00.000+08:00

There was this one fateful day when my friends and I were chatting about eco-friendly, biodegradeble plastic, which then veered to the critical condition of our ocean. X mentioned about the extinction of sharks and whales (which we couldn't care less because hey, we don't like sharks, get off!). Haha..it turned to a question about how sharks procreate. I know I'm no biggie on environment and all those love our nature, join the PETA, blah, blah, blah stuff but I am SURE I'm not ignorant about the environment lah. Cis btol ko X! Ok, back to the topic. We were enlightened by haha..X, about how sharks mate.

"Sharks mate when the male deposits sperm into the female's body. Male sharks have claspers as part of their pelvic, or second pectoral, fins. These are placed into an opening in the female's body and sperm passes along grooves in the clasper. Btw, do you know a male shark has two penis?"

...one of the things that makes X takes interest in Marine Biology -_-"

drain-brain conversation 1:

Tiff: yeah, I do watch porn. what's so exciting about it anyway?
X: (sigh) that's because the primeval urge of human being is absent within you babe.
S: -_-' yeah, right. that makes you a true primate.
X: (throws dagger on virtual plane) I'm a perfectly normal girl with urges ya know!
Tiff & S: Acck!!!

Fixation

2009-08-18T14:40:00.000+08:00

Kamenashi Kazuya looks hot in "Kami no Shizuku", with his mature appeals as he plows his way into the world of gastronomy and wines. Yes, his famous phrase in the drama, "目を覚ます、バッカス！" gives me shivers. His invocation to Bacchus is certainly dramatic and appealing. Nya~~ *he looks hot with *that* look.

Moving on to Hiro Mizushima in "Mei-chan no Shitsuji", who adhere to his calm, unruffled look makes me want to cry. For shame, he's married! What a lost to his rabid fan (I'm one). Still, marriage does not hamper me from drooling whenever I see his drama (He looks cool in Kamen Raider Kabuto. Smexeh!)

Ah~~ There are still Akanishi, Gackt, Hyde and other bishies to be watched on DVDs. So, wait for me, you gguys!. I shall make haste completing my assignments so that I can feast my eyes on bishounen, satisfy my craving for the sparkling beauty of Japanese men.

xxxThe girl who's fixated on Japanese drama, I mean bishie.

I was told off, "No PTPTN!"

2009-07-16T09:11:00.001+08:00

Being a good daughter, I tried to apply for PTPTN loan (my mom does not approve of taking loan). So, I tried to apply it secretly. My friend told me,"Ask your mother first." Ok, so I called her and lo! She scolded me because I asked her about the mentioned topic.
"Kenapa nak membazir? Kan mak boleh bayar. Tak payah nak gedik ambik ptptn. Mak tau kau nak berbelanja lebih. Jangan asyik ikut kawan. Diorang tu suka membazir."
....My mom just never understands other people have financial difficulties (including her own daughter lah)
It's not fair. I have to work my butt off to cover my stipend allowance.

I turned 20 but I've stopped aging way before that

2009-07-09T10:08:00.000+08:00

I have just celebrated my 20th birthday last Saturday (reluctantly due to persistent effort of denying time has caught me under it's wings) and thank God! nothing happens (discounting my sudden weight gain, at least nothing radical).
I was having periodical depression and fugue (fyi, it's a state of temporary blankness where a person in fugue state go over to places without realizing what he's doing, unable to recall memories of what he has done after the fugue period)for over 3 weeks, with fear hanging heavily over me: I don't want to be an adult. I think I had some sort of Peter Pan syndrome, excluding the merry-making, cheerfulness and pranks of children of Neverland.
The only good thing that I can think of happened to me was having a 3 months break from UIA. This small comfort, too will vanish in less than 1 week. Huu...I have class next week T_T
Talking about passing through life, there's a poem that I feel fit the description of the process of aging.

Roads go ever ever on,
Over rock and under tree,
By caves where never sun has shone,
By streams that never find the sea;

Over snow by winter sown,
And through the merry flowers of June,
Over grass and over stone,
And under mountains in the moon.

Roads go ever ever on
Under cloud and under star,
Yet feet that wandering have gone
Turn at last to home afar.

Eyes that fire and sword have seen
And horror in the halls of stone
Look at last on meadows green
And trees and hills they long have known

This poem, from "The Hobbit" by Tolkien is how Bilbo Baggins describes his journey with Thorin & Co. thieving from Smaug. Though, my interpretation of this lovely poem is deviantly far off. I feel that the first line in the first stanza symbolizes the process of living, a journey from one adventure to another. Lol. I've seen tinders and small fires but I've not quite yet reach the pinnacle of my series of adventure in life; as far as I'm concerned, the dragon that needs slaying in my life is not yet here at the moment: no huge crisis that threatens me to the extent of perishable condition for the time being.

Until the dragon that needs slaying come, I shall prepare myself as extensively as I can with gathered wits and conventional wisdom on problem solving methods.

Gender bender

2009-07-03T15:49:00.000+08:00

There is a stage in life where you start questioning about your sexuality. Nothing as crazy as doubting your sexuality after being mojoed by a loco gypsy-magician (like in "Lalola"), but more on whether you have the sexual quality of of your fixed gender. This confusion applies to both gender. For example, you are a man, and like normal, heterosexual man, you found women in general, are attractive. But so are men (attractive, I mean).Okay, this is where we tread on dangerous water. You find yourself doubting about your sexuality. You start to question yourself, "Am I a gay?" or "Am I a bi?".
Sounds familiar? You might start getting heebie jeebies when you give this topic a thought. I know I did. I like men (with the exception of orang utan-looking man). I love to see how they smile, their gestures, their gait. Simply put, I love oggling hunky dory guys. BUT, I also find women enchanting to look at; their carefully painted eyes, their flirtatious sway, the way their legs move (women with long legs are simply eye-poppers), and their breasts. I know it sounds disgusting; I felt that way too when I caught myself thinking like that, scared the hell out of me. I thought, "Shit! I can't be bisexual, that's like incest to like girls and it's disgusting!"
It's an uncomfortable situation to be in, what's with the taboo of having sex talk and all. I couldn't bring the topic out and talk about this to anyone. I was ashamed, scared and disgusted at myself.
After some time, I came across a few others who faced the same dilemma, and some of them had overcome this confusion about their sexuality. It turned out that my fear was baseless. Some people do find people of same gender attractive: it's all in physical attraction chemistry. I just misinterpreted my attraction of other females as an omen of turning into a bi. It just happens that like many others, I'm easily attracted to people with attractive physiques, regardless of gender. Phew, am I glad to confirm my own sexuality.

Radical changes

2009-05-21T09:22:00.000+08:00

I've been reading about Black Panthers, an organization that promotes Black Power and self-defense. They were an icon of counterculture in the time where coloured people were mistreated in the United States during 1960's. The Black Panthers Party had this notion about negating racial exclusivity; they organized a lot of community programs to alleviate poverty and improve health service for the minority, regardless of race and religion.
Unfortunately, like faith gone rampant, the organization had diverted from their true objectives.
Just like the situation in West Asia, where zealotry runs rampant and people start to kill each other because of the difference in faith.
The world is changing, how much?, I can't tell much because I have been living less than two decades. Though, I can certainly have a few words on the changes that I've seen during my sojourn on this physical body of mine. Back then, commodity price was lower. Back then, neighbours still swap dishes and juicy gossips (it's pretty rare nowadays to have that kind of exchange). These days, you can't even get a decent popsicle lower tahn 30 cent (the thing that never change is Tiger Orange Popsicle still cost 20 cent). These changes may not seem radical for most, but these things sure move up fast; there're bound to be more changes in the future. Because we live, changes are constantly needed to keep the world moving.
We live, laugh, do damage to certain degree, feel sad, anger and remorse, for some, live the way we want, and then come death. Life sounds meaningless sometimes? Yep, it does, for me. Still, I believe that we live for a purpose, each to fit with the design of fate for the future. It sounds SO poetic. Hahaha. So, I shall not lose all my marbles in one go and keep my faith that I am able to bring changes to the world, to make it better for the future generation.

Food!

2009-04-30T16:10:00.000+08:00

I really love food. I get crazy if there's any delicious food around. I can't resist buying a lot of them (foods). I rarely get to finish everything, maybe because I've gotten older so my stomach can't take 'em all anymore. It usually ends up being me distributing my portions to everyone (my friends). Sigh. The only times I finish up a plate of Kuey Teow Hong Kong are when I'm really hungry and haven't taken my meal for a day long or when I get scolded by my mom or Ian. I adore Fafa because she always help me finish whatever there is on my plate. The consequence of stuffing up till everything's cleared in the plate:stomach ache and diarrhoea.

I've really gotten old......

T_T

There are these horrible habits of mine: snatching other people's food and asking them to blanja me.

I'm terribly unladylike. -_-
I never thought much about it until lately.
(shrugs) oh well, I don't care much about having a bf. I just ditched one recently.I think of him as a wonderful friend than a lover. I really hope that he's going to play with me again after this. He's such a wonderful guy, very handy to be around when he's around ^_^

Drat! I missed that episode!

2009-04-30T13:04:00.000+08:00

I was flicking away the channel, trying to vanquish my boredom by seeking the ultimate TV show. I changed to TV3 and found it! There was this Spanish soap drama 'Lalola' where this guy's body was transformed by a witch into a gorgeous female. He, or rather the newly turned she, went through hell to adjust to her new bootylicious body and being the chief editor for a famous magazine and her co-workers were bent on making her life miserable because she was an oddish person. She wanted to change back to her normal form so bad, which I think is a bad idea. I mean, come on, he was an average, not so yummy guy and was changed unwillingly to a gorgeous gal. It could have been worse. The witch could have turned him@her(can I call lola trans?!) into a horrendous, ugly bitch. Ungrateful person.

Oh yah, the thing is I watched the second episode and missed the first one. $%&*

I am so happy 'cause I get to filch my mom's computer at the office. She's too busy doing the investment thingy downstairs, and hosting Tupperware party and all.

Eh, to those who read this post, if you want to buy Tupperware goodies, just order through me. I'll post 'em pronto to you.

There's also the vacation club where you pay a little and get a lot. Royal Liner Express to Langkawi and Singapore for thiose who join it. All you have to do is to recommend others to join the club. Other than that, you get paid!Want to join? Contact me at kepple89@yahoo.com. Exclusive for Malaysians only ya.

MAdneSs Out, VacaTion In

2009-04-23T14:11:00.000+08:00

Yay! exam is over!

Hmm...what sould I do ya?.....
1)it's a must; watch X-Men Origin:Wolverine
2)finish KS edit
3)play Der Langrisser for the hundred umpeteenth time
4)find a job
5)stop writing crap.

JEmbokekehuhujyungphehtahyuyuolalalalashishishipretpotpatipatimwahahaferefereizipsh..
*new incantation of inner serenity*
it works wondr on my mind, seriously

I have never post up my academic minutae here, haven't I?

2009-03-10T08:50:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.........This semester I'm taking Syllabus Design & Material, which requires all of us here in UIA, to actually design a syllabus and do all those research stuff, compile everything and plan for an English enhancement class/workshop.

I took Moral Development From Sociology Perspective, which requires us to take a look at the society and how it contributes to moral development, problems that we encounter in developing a society that is excellent morally. Blah, blah, blah...i'ts boring.

And then, there's Understanding Students with Special Educational Needs where we learn generally about disabilities, how to overcome difficulties in teaching students who have disabilities or special needs and also about the moral responsibility in teaching these type of students.

We have this adequate Intro to Lit class. I've done, so far, Orwell's essay, Dick Gregory's, and Anne Frank's Diary for non fiction. Erm...for fiction, we've done what ya? O, ya...William Faulkner's A Rose for Emily, Hills Like White Elephants and A Clean, Well-Lighted Place by Hemingway and I can't remember lalala~~~ Oh, we also do The Tempest. I so love Shakespeare.

There's Bahasaa Melayu Lanjutan. Pretty self-explanatory.

Phonology for ELT. I got recorded for one of my teaching presentation. Yay! That was fun.

Ahaha...my grammar has become inconsistent.

Oh, I got Study Circle 2, for cocu. The idea of cocu that requires me to sit and do nothing is very, very disturbing; I absolutely hate it!

Hmm...

Present vacuum

2009-02-23T15:57:00.000+08:00

As usual, because I so love to procrastinate, I'm having a very heavy traffic on mt to-do list. At present, my head is swimming with TPR, N Prabhu and hahaha..audio-lingualism.Blerrghh!!!

Oh yeah, speaking about phonology, my presentation on vowel/consonant and difficulties in pronunciation sucks-big time. It's really hard even though we're learning it in general- what with the phonotactic constraints.If I have to take specialization in phonology, I'd drop dead, frothing. oy, oy,oui!

Children live in now and here moment. It's been proven in the grammar usage and memory capacity. Why am I writing it here? ehehehe..because I've just been sounded over my mindless state; I forget things that happened after 10 minutes and I'm usually absorbed in whatever I'm doing, I don't think. I don't think. I don't think. I even forget about what I do in the morning after 2 o'clock. (sigh) I should really try mastering memory retention technique. Growing up is the most tedious, painful and troublesome thing ever. I wish I'd be like this forever and ever, but hey, nothing comes without progress. Oh, well. I guess things will get better. It can't be worse than now, right?

Happy birthday to Fatin 'Izzati bt Mohd Radzi!
All best wishes from me. Stay healthy, have fun and conquer the world. Hmm...bila dia dah jadi Menteri Sukan, agak-agak boleh dapat tiket match for free tak?aku kan kawan nye yang comel. Ahahaha~~~

Feeling blue all the way up to the mountain

2009-02-13T17:00:00.000+08:00

I've been feeling low lately, I wallow in self-pity and disgust over everything that I have and have done. -sigh- I wonder if the world would be a better place if I'm not here.
which brings me to the question of what will happen if i'm not here (non existant)?

here's what i got....
1)no one would harrass all creatures labeled as "Saki's friends"
2)it would totally be boring without my soap dramas, complaints and my horrible retorts over everything and that means i leave nothing to be left uncomplained.
3)who'd be the boss? duh. go figure
4)no one would be powed. that's a bad thing. terrible. too horrible to describe. i mean, my friends will be having too much money and they might not be able to spend it all and they won't be having any space left so they should empty 'em so that they can have space for the money that they're going to get from parents/ptptu/scholarship.That's a very logical reasoning and there could be no better way than spending their money for on me!
5)people would so totally miss my outrageous cuteness
6)syahmi would wail over nobody over his heartaches and misfortunes that befell on him. aimi would be to. I am after all their unpaid sympathizer cum friend cum lowly trained psychiatrist cum life counsellor.
7)no more late night meeting cum gossip sesion cum dbsk screamer cause i'm the organizer.duh.
8)sapa lg nk wat dajal dlm kelas klu x da moi
9).........to be continued

Missing somebody

2009-02-06T13:40:00.000+08:00

Friends are the greatest treasure you could have.there is a poem by e.e. cummings that reminds me of all my friends. no matter how far we're apart, they're always in my heart. i might have been insensitive, played cruel jokes on them or said hurtfull things (which i don't really mean them,o, most of the time anyway. i just love to say out spiteful thing because i'm naturally narcisstic), but that doesn't mean that i don't care for my friends. i might not contact them for along time, but that doesn't mean that i don't miss them. i do. i miss them for every single breath i take. i feel grateful for every single friend that i've made and i look forward to add some more. friends are like pieces of puzzle that shape you into what you are and what you will be. kudos to cummings for reminding me that friends that you've lost contact with aren't lost, they're still there, in your heart, forever and always.

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

Hairy, please don't pick your nose!

2009-02-06T13:17:00.000+08:00

I haven't posted anything for ages in here....Hmm, here it goes.

Complaints:
1)I have a lot of assignments to be finished T_T
2)I've been feeling depressed over nothing for the past week up til now =_=
3)I need more money!!!!!

I have this one class where we have to learn about co-curriculum, how to organise sports, blablabla....The lecturer's as dull as trolls=he speaks gibberishly in alien tongue aka BM. I can't understand what he talks most of the time. Though there there is one particular feature of his that managed to capture my attention: his humongous, cavernous nostrils!! His are really deep and dark, I wonder if there is any monsters that lurks around in that creepy region. (shudders)I've never seen anything like that until recently. That proves that human being really evolve (in behaviour and in anatomical figure).

Talking about nostrils also reminds me about long nostril hair and nostril shaver. Does anyone have any idea where I can get one? That'll be the best present that a male friend could have. After all, men nowadays are getting savvier about looking good. Long nostril hair can really mar one's look and thus, harms one's chance to get better acquianted with the opposite sex.

New proverb: As gooey as fresh booger
It means, semi-slimy and disgusting.

Gundam 00

2009-01-12T16:48:00.000+08:00

People looks at you when you are different.

This is what happened when I kick ass, use profanities, and talk loudly.

I was in phonology class this morning when an Indon called me. "tahniah, anda menang rm 10, 000." He asked for my account no. to transfer the money. I was sceptical about it. Since when Celcom hired Indon workers. I told him to call me back half an hour later. He called back (again!that persistant bastard!) when I was in Lit class. I told him straight I don't believe his farce, "Let me talk to your manager." Not surprisingly, he asked me, "saya x faham. blh tak ckp bm."
Hah! mana ada celcom personnel yg x leh ckp english.nampak sgt menipu.
pastu, I told him. "You are lying. I'm not interested in your scam." It was done loudly, my lecturer was staring at me. ^_^"

Hmm...Akmal bought kebab for us. Yay! penjimatan duit hari ini!

Ever since I'm here, I have become really careful about my expenses. Bayar yuran dgn duit sendiri, pastu dh x da duit nk belanja T_T

I've tried very hard to improve my BM, to the point of conversing in BM-eventhough I could hardly understand my gibberish talk. Haha..Ian, Fafa, Dina and Akmal always correct mistakes, though. Once, we were in Bm class, and the lecturer asked us to give factors that contributes to the spread of BM (pre-Indepandance). I didn't hear the instruction clearly.Obviously. So, merepek-repek la, buh kemunculan printing machine menyebabkan BM tersebar, blablabla...nk eja percetakan. i tanya la org sebelah, dia tgk i semacam. pastu dina bg tau, "u merepek apa. pencetakan la." malu gla-_-" lecturer tu gelak2 bla baca i punya jwpn.

I tried hard not to complain too much since my friends here got immuned la...I figured out drowning them with my complaints is just the 'out' thing; they're not that annoyed when I do that. Heh..nowadays I pepper them with nonsense stuff and keep asking them to blanja me. These ploy work wonderfully ^_^ Thanks to that, I've saved a lot of moolah.

Sigh, they can be frigging annoying when they don't respond to my mischief and tricks. I'm awfully cruel to Farah, though because she's fun to bother. Ngahahaha...

I'm watching Gundam 00 season 2 right now, even though I have a lot of assignment to be finished. Kufufu......my life sounds AWFULLY boring. Gahhh!!!

Drabbles and questions

2008-10-13T18:32:00.000+08:00

Fear can move people to do inscribable things; jumping down from the third floor to escape a loose snake in the building. An artist once said without consciousness, one will have fear. We are scared of things unknown;the invisible monster under the bed, the ghost of the darkest night. We fall prey to guilt and fear the consequence of our actions. Does that mean we create fear in our mind to remind us of deeds that are sinful that we have done?

Life can be harder, more painful than death. A mother may illustrate the pain of childbirth but the pain of growing up is indescribable. Heartache, death, poverty, insecurity, rejection, saying farewell. Aren't they important ingredients of growth? However painful life is, we still move on. Just like a pottery that has been shattered and pieced together back with glue, forming a disfigured piece. Nevertheless, disfigurement sometimes add refinement, giving the piece a sort of untouchable beauty. "Take me apart, rend me assunder. I will still remain intact". A big question pops up in my mind. "How long will it survive the passage of time and torment?"

2008-09-29T09:31:00.000+08:00

Nyahahaha..I have nothing to do right now, so I'm trying out a new personality quiz. Hmm...why people love to justify classify others through this kinda quizZ?Isn't social stratification is enough?
Blerghh...the point of my argument is that, do you have to take personality quizzes to assure that you're an egotist, temperamental, etc..? Surely one knows whether one has wart, loves mine-digging more than anything, etc...I do know I can be a bitch when someone pissed me off, but I also happen to be a good therapist to others. Point: You should do something more beneficial than taking personality quizzes.they crap.don't believe them 100%.

I'm with u all the way, people!

2008-07-16T16:55:00.000+08:00

I don't know why am I into this, must be because I'm such a lame brain since I'm opening another blog here. I can't help it since the collective TESLians from Melaka are here.

We are the leaders of the ummah.

That's the song that I have to memorize since I'll be staying here for the next 4 years. sigh~I miss being with in Melaka with all friends there eventhough we met for a brief time. I was innocent 18 n such a goody2 two shoes when I was there. The memory of hearing a classmate confessed reading dictionary is his hobby gave me jeebies "This lot are super nerd!"

It turns out to be the opposite-they're the funniest bunch of people I've ever met (other than the Kuro2 couple n my crazy mates).

I've turned 19 now. How time passes quickly. No matter how hard I wish and will it to stand still, the flow of time still continues. I bitched about being left out all alone in UIAM. Next time, I'll be crying because I'll be graduating from the university and leave all the good, the bad and the sweet things that I'll be accumulating here. Life is going to be harsh then after garduation, so leaving university will feel hard on me. I hope I'll still be in touch with my old chums, get my dream job, travel all around the world, settle up with a nice guy and when I'm old and senile, I'll be contented with what I've been through even though I cannot comprehend the reason for that feeling.

Aiyoo~~I'm writing such nonsensical, soppy things. I think getting mature has taken its effect on me-I'm having a vertigo of adulthood. I think I prefer to be forever 17. The world doesn't seem to whirl to much and the vast magnitude of reality effects fully on adults only (being a teenager is the most painful and at the same time wonderful thing).

P/s: today we have islamic entrepreneur festival. there are too many cheap n wonderful things, my eyes went cross. the strawberry dipped in chocolate is too much offensive to my tastebud, thanks. Though, the food they sell here are variant and there are many handicrafts from different countries and they're super dupper cheap! God, preserve me from festival sales!

pss: I saw this beautiful bracelet made in India (it costs only rm15! and the true value of it is rm89!) and I was thinking of buying it as a gift for someone. There is also a stall where they sell men's accessories (ikram would go crazy if he's here) and there's also a book sale where you can buy 3 novels for just RM 15! I'd go on and on forever about the wares they merchandise here. The laptops are sold with lower price than the market just for students. I'm planning to buy one, by bugging my dad to give me the money. Whee!

That's all for now, adieu~~~